Posted on : Wednesday, October 7, 2009
Posted at : 2:28 PM

"Love does not count on the laughter that you shared, but on the pain and tears you tried to get over with, just for the sake of holding on"

Say I would be the first and your last.
Say you're afraid of losing me.
Say you love me too much to let me go.
Say you would fight through anything to be with me in the past.
Say you wouldn't give up on me even if I do.
Say you would never want do things that will hurt me.
Say leaving me would be the last thing you'd ever do.
Say we can never be apart through any fights, no matter how hard it is.
Say I never treated and prioritized you right as a Boyfriend.
How could I if all you ever did was making me an option in your life.

Say I don't care.
Say I never needed you.
Where were you when I needed you, everytime?
You left me hanging alone, no calls and no text messages.
But I closed one eye and tried cheering up by myself cause I don't want anymore fights in us and to add up to the problems your hunching on your back.

In the end, you told me to let go and say you're sick of hurting me.
I'm sincere and I've always been from the start, you should know that.
Told you I'm strong enough to hurdle through everything with you.
But you urged me to leave and say that you'd come back for me.

I've always loved you for who you are from the start.
I never asked for you to change, thought you said you'd do all that willingly.
Never thought you'd leave me this fast.
I really don't know what to do now.

Thank you for being the bestest part in me, my life and everything.
Thank you for teaching me the word patience and love.
You made the greatest impact in my life.
Love you.. still.
Trust me when I say, nobody can do it like you.

God, help me stay strong.
I can't stop these tears from rolling down every single day.
Probably my eyes are running out of water already :(
I just can't get through a day without.. you.
I guess the tables have turned?

P/S
I really regretted the times when I took you for granted and ask you for billion times of breaking up.
Now all I ever want to ask is a trillion time for you to stay, for one last time.
It's best to say now that people will only start to learn and realize when they're gone.