Posted on : Wednesday, January 28, 2009
Posted at : 4:18 PM

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Ok video ini sungguh kekek tahap maksima sial!
Thanks to Nasrun for the video eh?
Hehe! And for the vocabs taught by you, it's very much appreciated!
Chia sayang Abang Nasrun many-many lah hoik! *winkwink*

Posted on : Saturday, January 24, 2009
Posted at : 12:27 PM

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I wouldn't update my blog if Dearest Yusuf didn't bug me to do so.
Now my blog post sounded as though it's on popular demand eh?
HEHE macam paham! x.x

Life these days is equivalent to the track of a roller-coaster ride.
So much for the thrills and excitement then ended off with a little bit of tears.
Err maybe not a little bit but more to Hindustani crying session haha! -_-
If translated to Science equation : life + love -> free endless roller-coaster ride
Well that doesn't really make sense though.
But that is just actually for your err own "general knowledge" ok! Heh.

Whatever you may say, I'm loving my life now.
At least now my dictionary is choking the word : happiness. Yay me!
Besides, I've learn plenty of lessons within this few days.
Most importantly is that I learn to trust myself before trusting others more.
Well, a new achievement made for this year eh? *shakes ass*

Satu pencapaian yang hebat oleh Nur Azira Bte Khairil Anuar!
Chey! Seolah-olah seperti receiving an award @ the Grammy's. HAHAHA! -.-

Anyhoots, to sum things up.
I've patched things up with Dearest Boyfriend.
Afterall, it was my fault to hear only one party's saying and not the other.
Then w the feeling of anger, I just ended it drastically.
One word that I should be deserved to call : s-t-u-p-i-d!
Trust me, I don't even know why I ended my relationship actually. Serious ok!
Masyallah! Ke-selenge-an yang tahap maksima betul lah. Tsktsk, Chia.. Chia.
Well at least I've learn from my mistakes.
And aku tengah berazam to not repeat it ever again. Chey haha!

So this is it! My post for today that I make up for yesterday.
Well it's because I was supposed to blog yesterday.
But thanks to my tired and drowsiness, I slept on the keypad heh.

And before I go, I'd like to thank Cupid for shooting arrows at me everyday.
I assume that is why I'm falling in love with Boyf for so a lot of times hehe.

Ok bye! *screams*

P/S
I'm really sorry to cry in front of you, on the day we finally got back together dear.
Well that is actually the first time I cried real bad. O.o
I guess I missed you and your warmth too much after 5 days of "separation" eh?
Heh told ya that you're the only person I'd lose my ego to.
Oh ya! There still isn't any reason for you to apologize to me, really. :)
Because it is all thanks to the misunderstandings and my insecurities!

Posted on : Tuesday, January 20, 2009
Posted at : 4:29 PM

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Dearest Y,
I'm so sorry that I have to end it here, this period, this time, this way.
I'm really sorry that I couldn't follow through with you, dear.
I just had to break the promise of not leaving you again.
I feel that I already have heard and had enough from everything.
But I'll always remember how we came close to be.
I guess all is left now is for me to think through and recover from all this.
I was too occupied till I forgotten how to trust my own feelings.

Sometimes I just feel stupid to trust "friends" more than I trust you.
Why should I trust my "Bestfriend" more while I know you more than he does?
I wonder why can't I control my feelings since I trusted you?
Why can't I just trust my own feelings?
Why did I let my insecurities overcome me?
What in the world is wrong with me!

I just can't go on this way, not trusting & doubting you every min you aren't w me.
I can't bear the silence you left me w & rumors they occupied me w.
It really sounds pathetic to go on a relationship w/o trust.
What's love w/o trust baby..
This isn't the way that love is supposed to go.

I'm sorry baby, that I had to leave again. I really hope you understand. ;[
It hurt me a lot to leave you hanging, I never wish to.
But I know going on would just hurt me more.
I really do love you a lot baby, I do.
Even more than how much you can see dear.
Can't you just make a promise to me you'll be doing alright? ;[
I'm sorry for all the pain I put you through.
I hope it'll get better in time honey.

I feel so shitty.
I feel so naive.
I feel so stupid.
I feel so.. so betrayed.

Lastly, I feel that I really do love you so.
And I know I'm not confused when it comes to saying that dear.
Trust me. I never had the heart to leave you like I did before.
I'm no longer a heartless user cause You taught me to love and be strong.

Oh god. I miss you a lot.
And I really do need you here with me, right now. ;[

P/S
Baby, what happened to working it out?
;[

Posted on : Tuesday, January 13, 2009
Posted at : 12:00 AM

[Edited : It has ended, you JERK!]

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Now this song is for you okay, stmf. ;'D


Hello semuanya!
It has been weeks since I've updated my blog eh?
Fuh! Suspect kuat case malas-ism tahap maksima nyer sey! Heh. ^.^
Tsktsktsk. Chia, Chia...

My blog is actually still on hold till further notices.
But what urged me to update is because of today, 13th of January 2009.
Need me to underline/bold/larger the date tak? Ok itu sungguh tk perlu. -.-
If anybody are scratching their head sampai setengah botak want to know why kan.
Err you all boleh rileks tepi corner sudah ok? *smirks*
Ok bedek. -.-

On Tuesday, 13 January 2009.
I am proud to declare that I've been attached with (insert name) for four months.
And still going on strong for 19 mins, 37 sec and etcetc HEHE. (Bragging in progress)
THANK GOD AND THANK YOU! (Yay me, yay us siket boleh tak? Tsk.)
Err I think it also prolly took me about (lost count) to have this much patience in him, you know. :O
Cheh macam paham. Padahal it should be the other way round. HAHA wtf-.-
I should proudly thank no other than my ego yang tahap high class for all the shites that happened after these four months.
Betul tak betul? (tears of joy, serious ok -_-)

To sum this post up, I just really want to say that I love you a lot.
In every little thing you do, I always do love you despite myself being ignorant.
I mean it when I say you're the only one I would hurt to lose, darling.
No one can ever tahan my perangai yang full of ego taik, as long as you did.
For what I realized so far, you really gave me love and everything that I needed.
With that, I hope we can last for a super duper long time.
I'll always be here to stay and loving you long time okay.
Sampai awak datang merisik kite pun boleh tau. Kite tunggu tau awak HEH.
Sayang awak many-many k. Muah!

So be jealous ok girls!
Boyfriend kita hot. Yours tak! *kening up-down*

Okay, I'm blabbering nonsense w/o realizing that it's already 12.46am.
HAHA I'm pretty annoyed by my own self eventually. -.-
Ngantok betul lah aku. *yawns*

Posted on : Saturday, January 3, 2009
Posted at : 4:20 PM

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Okay, it has been ages since I've updated my blog lah hor. -.-
Gratitude to my malas-ism for the drag HAHA, like again!
Not much of a surprise, eh? -_-

I, Nur Azira Bte Khairil Anuar, declare that first day of school was a meanie.
Urgh! I was being pulled out from my class during the Spot Check.
I was crossing my fingers till it sweated okay!
And that was when F.T appointed me to stand at the front.
Menyumpah sak aku jadinyer. !%@$^*)&$%$?!

Anyweh, I still had to face the music for not dying my hair black back what.
So, I was dragging myself to walk from the back to the front of the Parade Ground.
I can feel my face turning chilly red at that whole point of time standing at the front, sumpah.
Alersmak perasaan kemaluan ini amat, amat, tidak boleh terangkat siol!
Betul-betul tak boleh carry oi, serious shit punya! _|_

Right.. after much delay.
We were being arranged according to our Level.
She went nagging that parents or guardians are to be called immediately.
Then we'll be sent back if it's too much obvious. Yadayada yackity yack. -.-
I should say that God listened to my prayers while I was outside of the Office.
HAHA betul tak bedek seh, lagi-lagi hari Jumaat you! *kening up-down*

The main fucking reason I said that was because I was happily safe.
Safe cause she didn't call Sisty and I wasn't being sent back home.
So then, I happily assured her that I'll dye my hair during the weekends heh.
So much for a sweet deal with those confident eye-contact.
Whatever, at least it worked for me HEH. ^o^
But still, I had to show up in school on Mon @ 7.15am with a proper grooming.
I guess I shall be going to school w Fariz again HAHA. Thanks ehk bestie! ;D

Afterwards, nothing much happened in school.
Sitting arrangement has changed and I ended up sitting with my neighbour.
At least there's something to yay about eh? YAY ME!
But unfortunately, I'm sitting in the row in front of the Teacher's Desk.
And that fucking means no texting in class. Oh boo!
Tapi, tapi, tak apa lah. Kita pergi sekolah untuk belajar, betul tak awak?

School ended at 12.40pm though it was suppose to be at 12.30pm. -.-
Again, another yay for all of us.
I could see the face of the students glowing with happiness. o.o
Chey ah chey HAHA!

After grabbing our lunch @ Admiralty which was on Abdillah with my Girls, we all went back home.
Before heading back, I had to meet up with Baby at my Lift area.
I have to say that I missed him really much though I saw him in school earlier on.
Aww am I just so sweet dear? HEHE.
Sort things out clearly and things happened. *winkwink*
Yet again, I shall not be elaborating. (Eleh, confidential konon! Puik!)

Okay, I'm done summing this whole composition of my day HAHA.
I think I saw a B minus flying over my face for this post, eh? -.-
Anyweh, grading isn't needed lah hor? xD
Toodles!