Posted on : Thursday, October 29, 2009
Posted at : 10:42 PM



I had my fun and my share of sweat with my fellow Classmates t'day.
But the part I like most is the "after-cip-hours" with my Girls heh heh.
Gerek u noe. And one word to describe just now is : coincidence.
But sad case lah we're all going to part into different classes next year.
How I will miss ya'all berry much :-(

P/S
Let's all cross our fingers and hope that our Class Pit at ECP will go on well heh.

Posted on : Saturday, October 24, 2009
Posted at : 12:44 AM

"I believe that everything happens for a reason.
People change so you can learn to let go.
Things go wrong so you can appreciate them.
Cause when they're right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but your ownself.
And sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together"

I shifted to ♥ Tumblr .
Will be updating at either one lah hor. Fickle or wat! :-D

P/S
I wuv you!
Thanks k bye.

Posted on : Monday, October 19, 2009
Posted at : 2:31 PM



HAPPY 46TH BIRTHDAY DADDY A.K.A BOI FIERCE!!! (woah I so scared alrdy lah)
Big boi alrdy leh! Nid to haf more cool in yourself to stay youthful HEH HEH.

AND HAPPY 23RD ANNIVERSARY MUMMY & DADDY!!
May the love in you both last for eternity.
Hidup mati family Khairil Anuar B Soonari lah oke! :-D

LUV U FROM THA BOTTOM OF MY HARTX!!!!!!!!!!
MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH!

Ok as you can see, I really lost my marbles.
Well I think all of it rolled down the staircase and so I lost it.
OH MY GAWSH, PLEASE COME BACK ROLLIN' TO MUMMY U BLARDY STUPID MARBLES!! -__-"

From wat I can c now, Riz is absofuckinglutely irritated with my belo-ism.
So ya wat a BFFL u are!! Sad case, gone case :(

Posted on : Sunday, October 18, 2009
Posted at : 6:34 PM



Doesn't it feels good to be falling in love, deeply?
It's either I'm actin' like a broken record falling in love, again and again or it's just the song that keeps my mood so lovely heh heh.
God knows :)

Or maybe.. I'm just too in love with novels and coffee?
Haha whatever.

P/S

Think pink okay?

Posted on : Tuesday, October 13, 2009
Posted at : 11:56 PM



Never can I deny how stupid and regret I felt not treating you right back then and how egoistic I was towards you.
Maybe it has always been me, and not you.
I really appreciate the times when you stayed strong and been patient with me thru out this year and months without me realizing.
But I guess it's all okay now, cuz you're already happy with where you are now.
Last long you both and may the love in you both last for eternity.
I'm sure she can treat you better than I do. That, I'm really sure :-)

As for me, no matter how much regret and remorse I feel right now, I'll try my best to polish and brush myself up.
I shall never want to commit the same mistakes I did before.
Who knows, till tomorrow comes or something? Haha.

Eventho I admit I suck playing the role as a girlfriend, at the very least I'm working on it right now.
Haha but mind you okay, I'm still the humorous chic you can ever find.

P/S
I'm sorry for everything that I put you through.
Stay happy together, forever.
I'm done.

Posted on :
Posted at : 10:32 AM


Happy One Year, One Month Annimisery, well supposingly.

I'm here not to say how much I want you and need you back in my life.
I won't beg for it, no I won't anymore.
I won't be there any longer if you were to turn your back around.
But if you do, you'd only watch me trying to forget about you.
And I always wanted you to know that you couldn't have loved me better than anyone else could.
You still do mean a lot to me than anyone I've ever loved at all.
But for now, I guess I just can't feel my heart anymore.
I believe things are better off this way.
Most importantly, I've learn to see things in an optimistic way.

Maybe.. we were never meant to be and were always meant to say goodbye.
This time, I'm strong enough to say that I love you enough to let you go.
So I'm letting you fly, love. Isn't this what you ever wanted? :')

I know that one day, you'll find another that doesn't always make you want to cry.
Don't worry, love. It will be soon before long.
Just look around you and I guess you already got her close to you.
I'm proud of you, in every way.

Till we meet again.. love?
Nah, I don't think so.

Sealed with love, kisses and hugs.

P/S
Thank you for visiting my dream and living in it last night.
Eventho my dream was like a playback of everything we used to go thru, I'm really thankful that I get to go thru it once more and see it replay.

I can never deny that I will miss every bit of it..
From the things that I used to complain and hate about you,
The endless walks that made us go into circles w/o us realizing,
You wrapping me around your arms and trying to steal kisses from me,
You and me making future plans and doing pinky promises to each other not to ever quarrel again in the future with our heads on top of each others',
And how you ever told me that you won't love another but only me as the first and last.

And even much more, you know it yourself, don't you?
But most of all, I will miss you loving me and me loving you like there's nothing else in the world that matters.

For the last time I'm saying this.
I love you, very much. And I will miss you even much more.
Maybe like some saying, look up to the sky and see the stars shining bright.
That's how much I love and miss you but it's more to like for infinity.

"There comes a time in life when you have to let go of all the pointless dramas and the people who create it and surround yourself with people who make you laugh so hard that you forget the bad and focus solely on the good. Afterall, life is too short to be anything but happy"

Posted on :
Posted at : 12:01 AM


"being able to survive it, doesn't mean it was ever okay"

I'm fascinated yet dreading the fact that today marks the 13th of October.
Nope, not being clingy. Maybe am just wondering how I could ever thought of forever to exist in my dictionary.
Oh god, I think I'm in need of a bitch slap to reality check lah hur hur.

I've got no idea why I'm still wide awake posting in the middle of the night (or is it early morning) with my blanket, stuffed toys, pillows, bolsters all around me & aircon on to the lowest temp.
One word to describe this feeling is syiok..pada tahap maxima! *wink wink*
But still, I can't get my eyes shut. Just yet.

Hmm so far, life haf neva eva been near to the scale of good & worse.
In other words, life's a climb & I'm endeavouring to climb up till th mountain top.
Maybe it's true that shitty things like this happen for a reason.
Probably for a good cost? Well, I don't know and have yet to figure it out.
So despite that, I'm constantly reminding myself to luv lyfe tha way it is. :-D
*make the fanatic tongue's out face till eyes go sepet* (HAHA KIDDING ME OR WHAT!)

Anywae, my school break is coming to an end already - this "Wetsday".
Glad to say that I've been spending it wisely by cycling, movie-marathoning, pancing ikan(HAHA inside joke) and bla bla bla.
But the most eggciting thing I ever did was today - gg to the lib alone ard dawn time and getting myself stalked in the lib -.-
As stupid it may sounds, I felt scared or rather insecured with those 2 people.
So I just had to break the law to call Hani up for company.
Tell me now why I have to learn to be independent! =__=
I'm a kental_bangs_gal_95@life.com (HAHAHA I noe)

And as much as I hate school, I still miss it like alot, alot, alot, alot and alot, alot, alot, alot, alot and alot more..........(continue till tongue gets twisted)
Ironic right. I can't believe it too haha.
I'm missing all the things I used to complain doing for eg; writing summaries, compositions and getting chased by F.T and bla bla bla.
But out of these things, I miss my Breasties the most, even much more than alot.
And the other thing I miss doing is bursting out happy bubbles in the canteen.
Haha now I'm making my post sound as if it's kekurangan perhatian alrdy =__="

On an entirely new note, I'm moving on or at least trying to make it sound like I am.
I'm sick of over-analyzing our situation for minutes, seconds, hours and months, trying to put the pieces back together, justifying what could've and would've happen.. When it's hell not gna change a thing at all.
So I made my choice, to leave the pieces on the floor and move the fuck on! :-D

And moving on doesn't always mean moving on with another.
Mind you. Don't be juvenile.

So that's just it!
Time check and I'm off to bed!
So long, people of Earth.

Hello naive-feeling-girl, I come in peace with a feeling of lil anger.
I'm telling you, you can never be me, so quit trying.

P/S
*will be updated tomorrow* IM SLEEPY *YAWNS*

Posted on : Wednesday, October 7, 2009
Posted at : 2:28 PM

"Love does not count on the laughter that you shared, but on the pain and tears you tried to get over with, just for the sake of holding on"

Say I would be the first and your last.
Say you're afraid of losing me.
Say you love me too much to let me go.
Say you would fight through anything to be with me in the past.
Say you wouldn't give up on me even if I do.
Say you would never want do things that will hurt me.
Say leaving me would be the last thing you'd ever do.
Say we can never be apart through any fights, no matter how hard it is.
Say I never treated and prioritized you right as a Boyfriend.
How could I if all you ever did was making me an option in your life.

Say I don't care.
Say I never needed you.
Where were you when I needed you, everytime?
You left me hanging alone, no calls and no text messages.
But I closed one eye and tried cheering up by myself cause I don't want anymore fights in us and to add up to the problems your hunching on your back.

In the end, you told me to let go and say you're sick of hurting me.
I'm sincere and I've always been from the start, you should know that.
Told you I'm strong enough to hurdle through everything with you.
But you urged me to leave and say that you'd come back for me.

I've always loved you for who you are from the start.
I never asked for you to change, thought you said you'd do all that willingly.
Never thought you'd leave me this fast.
I really don't know what to do now.

Thank you for being the bestest part in me, my life and everything.
Thank you for teaching me the word patience and love.
You made the greatest impact in my life.
Love you.. still.
Trust me when I say, nobody can do it like you.

God, help me stay strong.
I can't stop these tears from rolling down every single day.
Probably my eyes are running out of water already :(
I just can't get through a day without.. you.
I guess the tables have turned?

P/S
I really regretted the times when I took you for granted and ask you for billion times of breaking up.
Now all I ever want to ask is a trillion time for you to stay, for one last time.
It's best to say now that people will only start to learn and realize when they're gone.

Posted on : Friday, October 2, 2009
Posted at : 7:19 PM

"Saw your face and you didn't look the same as yesterday.
I got the feeling that you can't seem to see, where you want to be.
Lately it ain't been the same at all, when you're here its like I'm invisible.
You don't even do the things you use to do"

Or it's either I'm just.. overreacting?
Yez most likely I am.

But hey, Im still loving you like it was the first time :)
I'm sincere and I've always been from the start.
I'm staying strong, I'll never ever leave you.