Posted on : Wednesday, July 30, 2008
Posted at : 5:16 PM

current mood:

Oh sheesh, my blog is so dead and very dead.
So dead, that my great great punya grandmomma is more alive ehk. -.-
(Kelakar ah konon. Ketawa lah kau sorang macam crazy woman ehk)
Huahua, macam pah ah ehk. -.-

School schedule is really hectic nowadays.
Hectic gila sampai no time for my ownself, serious.
Betul tak bedek nyer! *cross fingers*
And at some point of time, I felt like breaking down somehow.
Tengok lah, stress sangat sampai otak pun dah sat2.
Bulu kaki aku pun dah nak naik botak siol. FUIYOO!
Macam mana nie?!

Anyhoots, I find myself rather moody and vulnerable nowadays. Tsk.
Is it just me or is it them that aren't treating me right?
Maybe it's just my mood that turns me down to take a joke eh?
HAHAHAHA, menopause kapa sak aku! JENGJENG.
But sometimes, I think it's just too much for a joke.
In other words, you exaggerated terlalu over okay!
And that's a honest remark. ^o^

Oh yeah, before I even forget.
I'll probably be performing an item in school for the NDP Celebration.
Believe it or not sak, I'm singing okay!
Comfirm muka macam cempedak basi siol. -.-
Haha, tapi nevermind lah.
At the very least, I'm singing in a group of 6.
And singing; Where I Belong which is my all time favourite song.
So, be prepared people for my ear-piercing performance on the 8th Aug.
HAHAHA. *evil wink*

Lastly, I thought you said you loved him.
Then why are you flinging with other boys?
I'm trying my best to let go of him.
So tolong ehk, jangan nak sia-siakan my effort. -.-

And to you.
I hope you'll feel satisfied since I've said this.
You can have her all you want; a piece of her, a half of her or anything!
But isn't it better to show the real me then hiding around the bushes?
I don't go disguising just for the sake of people to like me, unlike some.
So, help yourself okay b.
You have brains to think babykuzxz.

Okay, time checked. It's 6.00pm sharp.
Bye people.
Take care yaw!

P/S
Sometimes I wonder.
Why isn't my heart strong enough not to leave knowing all that you do?
And why am I so much in love with you?
Regretting? Well, I think that I am!
*tongue tied*

Posted on : Thursday, July 24, 2008
Posted at : 11:32 PM

My blog is so dead, but who cares right.
I'm currently on hiatus mode since Common Test are drawing near.

Life has been a bitch, so am I and the others. (Tau tkper ehk-.-)
To summarize, I've a hard week with all th piles of works and fights.
Oh god, I can't take it anymore sak.
But still, I'm mentally strong enough to go through all this okay!
I will survive! *grins*

Sheesh, I don't why but I kept on backspacing word by word.
I guess I just can't find the right words to describe how haprak my life is eh?
Stress botak sak aku dibuatnya! -.-
Sad enough ey. Tsk.

Okay, time checked and it's 11.46pm.
I'm off to sleep people! :D

And to the One Inched Lady with Fake Boobs and Wig Hair:
I hope you feel satisfied after all you did towards me.
Dah puas hati kau buat kerja tipu-menipu macam gini?
Telling lies, telling twisted stories, sampai aku terbabit in a fight?
_|_

I just hope you have got all the attention and everything you want.
Cs I know you manage to get him back too, am I right?
Congratulations for your achievements lah ehk.
And lastly, congratulations to be a newly bitch in school and in my life.
Help yourself please, I couldn't bother much any longer.
:D

P/S
Fuck, I feel so empty nowadays.
And I don't even know what I'm missing.

And yeah, what's left in my mind is just a fxcking big question mark.
"Do you love her or me?"
If you love her, go on ehk puhlese!
Just treat me as though we never ever have been in love together.
Go ahead with your plans: go to school with her, send her back and etc.

I'd rather be single then seeing you with her.
Beh treating me macam lampost bernyawa.
Biken kekek kapa sak?

But really, you're really dumb to sympathize her as if she's a loner.
Cs you see, she've attracted all the "dumbos" attention into the wrong scene.
Stewpid you to have a bitchy girlfriend like her.
And falling into one of her "cute" face eh? NOT.
Maybe, we can submit her name into the Oscars' Award for the best actress?
Hopefully.

Judging by this, do you think that I love you still?
If you say I don't, then why would I bother about you, posting this up?

But I hope you'll always remember the sacrifices I've made for you.
Macam wasted gitu ehk. In the end, this is what I get from you?
You and your One Inched Lady misusing my trust?
-.-

I'M VERY DISSAPOINTED OKAY!
SERIOUSLY! :(

Posted on : Monday, July 14, 2008
Posted at : 5:26 PM

Ok, aku buat ini video dengan titisan peluh aku sendiri siol.
Pause my blog song if you wish to see the video.
HAHA! Jangan lupa tengok Bloopers at the very last part yaw.
Biken kelakar kape sak-.-

Posted on : Saturday, July 12, 2008
Posted at : 6:36 PM



Honestly, I don't know if I should blabber about this.
But this is especially for her who know lah.
Kau jangan pikir I post this up cs aku jealous eh, tolong siket!
Relek suak ehk. -.-

Dear friend,
It's been a year or so you've been a friend to me.
But wait. Do you even know the meaning of a friend?
Just so you know, you’re just faking every single words lah ehk. -.-
Fuck your words and same goes to your scandal too.
Dua kali lima dol lah sey! Suka sangat belitkan the truth.
Oh! Probably that’s what big "losers" do when they’re at wrong eh? _|_

Kau pikir hape, mentang-mentang kau kecik, kau pikir kau cute?
What's the use of being an attraction if perangai macam cempedak basi?
Despite you being a small sized yet a huge population hates you eh.
How ironic? Maybe they see your true colors, finally!
Err, don’t you think you should zap back to reality? O.o

If you're saying that I'm popular and majority hates me, I'm aware of that.
(Aku tak brag ehk. Tapi kau sendiri yang cakap. Mind you.)
At least I knew it right from the start and avoided them, unlike you.
You still go along with them despite knowing they hate you a lot.
And you yourself said that you don't mind not having me as friend.
But why still bother being with me? O.o
Ape kau peh maksud siol, in the first place? HAHAHA.
You're just indirectly saying you're a loner and don't have others to rely on.
But only us, isn’t it?

Then now what?
You're going with the Sec 2's, telling them a bunch of lies 'bout the situation.
But why lie when you know that you aren't at wrong ehk? O.o
Cs you know when you tell truth, they won't want to be with you isn't it?
Then if you're saying I'm wrong, why cry badly the other day?
You're crying cs you're a loner or cs you're feeling guilty?
Merepek siol kau. Perangai nonsense sak.
But unfortunately, kau makan diri kau yang maha kecik ehk please.
And it's stewpid you to not know lah sey:(

HAHA, think back.
Do you really think your friends are "kamching-kiak" with you?
Or are they just acting a plot with me to save the truth but not your lies?
Padahal-padahal ehk. Dasar legong! *peace*

For my case, at least I got my friends with me for who I am, truthfully.
But let me ask you, do you?
Or are you just trying to break the tie of friendship between me and them?
So that they'll trust you instead of me?
Just like what you did towards me and her, till she trusted you more than me?
And when you get what you want, you'll abandon them?
Biken kelakar kapa sak?

Hey! Why not, you go ahead with your scandal, since he pity you much.
And be the biggest attraction that you both can ever be, but as jerks?
At least its better, don’t you think so?
Then you'll get plenty of attention that can jamin your years in school okay.
Abeh kau tak payah nak become the center of attention.
Cs kau dah everywhere of attention, left, right, front and back.
But before that, better promise not to ditch each other afterwards eh?
:D

And ehk, maybe it's true.
You're just stuffing tissues/sponge in your bra to make your bust big.
That's what others and I think, seriously. -__-
No wonder it doesn't fits you sak. (!!)
Macam turtle with it's big shell, nyeknyek.

This was how you spread lies about me, fyi.
Don’t you think this is karma?
HAHA.

Yours sincerely,
Azira, your duplicate.
(Duplicate kapa kak? -.-)

To others, stop scratching your head sampai nak half koyak.
Isn't it obvious enough?

P/S
I think I'm crushing, haha.
And I've moved on cs I realized you're not worth my tears after all.
The times we had and shared are all bullshits okay!
Thinking back, why did you even asked me for a patch back?
Are those reasons mentioned even true?
I'm afraid so not ey?

Don't you think I finally zapped back from reality?
:D

Posted on : Friday, July 4, 2008
Posted at : 10:22 PM

To my Used To Be Boyf'/D's Scandal,
Honestly, I don't know what has gotten into you.
I don't know if you're trying to make me feel how I made you feel the other day.
But ini case dah melampau siak.
Trust me, I'm not and never pleading you to be with me.

"Si kecik tu blh jalan uh.im irritated. Asyik kacau A jek. A tk suke dier lah.jgn takut k?"
"Yea babe. I hope there’s no arguing in this relationship again."
"K eh,Are we still together?Do u still love me? If u ask me back eh,I still love u.."
"Yea,I still hv heart 4 u..N wat about u?Do u?"

Are you still holding on to the words you said?
Are you still holding on to the promises you promised me?
Are you doing all this because you love her but not me?
Are you doing this because of revenge?

Fuck your words.
Ask yourself, do you really mean it?
You're just hiding behind the words you speak.

I'm really disappointed in you.
And hell, you don't deserve me and neither do I deserve you.
I just thought that we could be back on track, like we used to be.
And forgetting the past since I thought you've changed after you treated me right.
But no, trusting you again was another mistake.
You lied to me and you're still the same you, trying your very best to deny that you love her still.

I'm sick and tired of this sak.
I just hate letting you go cs of insecurities w/o even hearing from you.
When would you ever speak up and be a man?
Why must she always get into the picture of me and you at the wrong time?
Was it her or just you, that welcomes her into your heart?

I've sacrificed for you, cried for you.
But did you ever appreciate it and see it?
Didn't you think through the cause of the breakup we had on January 08?
Can't you see how much I loved you?

I left H because I loved you, not him.
Despite the fact I knew he loved me more than you do.
I rejected both A(s) off because I loved you, not them.
Because of you, I lost my friends.
I left you earlier this month cs I knew you loved her and not me.
All I wanted was just to make you happy and not lie to yourself.
And what more, kau panggil aku merepek lagi ade eh.
Thanks ehk.

So you're telling me now I did an effing big mistake?
And now you want D back because you effing sympatize her?
Because she's lonely? She've got nobody to count on besides you?

Tolong ehk, if you think by typing all this I'm desperate for your brother.
Congratulations to be a newly idiot. -.-

Posted on : Thursday, July 3, 2008
Posted at : 7:59 PM

My, oh my!
Today school was such a drama siol. Seriously. -____-
I feel stupid for accepting you back, I feel so stupid to cry for you!
When I, my own self, even know that you'll break your promises and fling with her again in the end.
Am I right, baby kush? Or am I just exaggerating? -.-
(korang2 yang tgh garuk kepala sampai half koyak, just go and read)

Kau pecahkan promise kau pada aku boleh kan.
Abeh sekarang kalau aku pecahkan muka kau boleh?!
EEEEEEE, stress terkangkang aku dibuatnya! _|_
But thankfully, I’ve friends to count on that could make my day.
And to break the record, I love you all please? <3

Honestly, I couldn’t get my mind of the promises you broke towards me.
Apa lagi? Starting of the day before entering the hall aja, I started crying sak.
And that was right after I heard that they went to school together.
Aku lagi dengar yang semalam he wanted to go along with her?
What the fucking fuck for sak?! Biken kelakar kape har?

WAH WAH WAH EH!
Dah macam gitu ada hati lagi nak putar belitkan cita.
Kau peh putar belit tak dapat belitkan aku lah pompan!
Tapi belitkan diri kau yang maha kecik tu jek lah tolong(!!)
Piker aku satu peh legong ah konon. Merepek macam sial.
Aku lempang kepala kecik kau macam bola tennis baru tahu sak. O.o

Whoever nak kene lempang, join the queue okeh.
Cs I’m sure there’ll be a queve, comfirm kalahkan Sheng Shiong ah.
Serious shit, I tell you!

Besides that, aku find it quite cool ah.
Bila on the way pergi skola with Siti, happy gila babi.
When I reached school aja, mood terus hilang babe.
Nak tangkap maintain pun tak jadi siol.

I really want to thank Hani for being there when I needed her, most of the time.
I love you, serious tak bedek! Not forgetting Siti and Nads too. :D
Thanks for the hugs, jokes, laughters and everything. (:
Maybe it's true that he isn't worth my tears at all. *runs aimlessly*

AND! I'll never forget our slebeng-ness in the hall with Haziq tadi siol.
For more information about that, sila pergi http://fcukupman.blogspot.com
Angkat paisey siak aku.

P/S
Fuck, I'm disappointed in you.
Where did your promises gone to?
Or do you want me to post it up here?
I will, hold on for the next post. :D

Posted on : Wednesday, July 2, 2008
Posted at : 7:08 PM


My oh my, I don't know what has gotten into me.
But I really miss my Sister, serious.
Tsktsk. Random kan, I know.
(merepek. ignore please.)

Life hasn't been the way I wanted it to be since school had reopen.
Sial, I know. But heck, apa yang boleh aku buat? -.-
And today, my day was full of exaggeration and drama sak.
HAHA, tapi not a lot, just a bit ehk. Mind you.

Jengjengjeng, and to make it even worst.
Sardine came up to me saying she didn't like my habit of brushing hair during class.
Pala butoh, dia suruh aku clip up fringe. Abih macam mana?
She's just a 40 year old stupid virgin who wears pants bawah tetek abih bongkok.
Dah lah hitam and kurus macam branch, rambut style 60an pulak tu! -.-
Relek suak eh pompan.

I really can't take it siak.
But on the other side, I'm really satisfied that I had my payback.
Eventually, almost the whole class agrees to the whole plot.
Call me b*tch, but he's even more, honestly.
Aku sepak pipi kau pakai tapak kaki baru tau siol. _|_
But hey, at least I'm speaking up for the whole class ok! :D
Amik kau, chey. *peace

Anyway, I almost broke down in school during recess.
Right after Siti told me what happened, aku terus terpranjat botak ah.
Sebelum dia bilang aku pun, I saw it with my own eyes ehk, tolong.
PHUIYOO, aku jealous. Is that what you want me to say?
Now what eh, baby? You didn't even mean what you said. :(
I just hope that you still remember what you promised and said to me before.
Let HaniHumairahBinteKamil be the witness of everything.

Ok fuck, ini dah jadi perkara rumit. Serious shitnya case.
I really hope that history won't come back around.
Like I once told you. Love me, let me know and prove it.
And if you don't, I think it's best if you let me go.
Cs I don't know if there's still the existence of love for me to you.
Maybe your ignorance and you flinging around with her tells it all.
Yes? No? I don't know, really.

I don't want us to be like we used to be.
I hate hating you ok! Period.

P/S
Why do you even think I'm not serious in this relationship when I even care to bother?!
D: