Posted on : Tuesday, October 13, 2009
Posted at : 12:01 AM


"being able to survive it, doesn't mean it was ever okay"

I'm fascinated yet dreading the fact that today marks the 13th of October.
Nope, not being clingy. Maybe am just wondering how I could ever thought of forever to exist in my dictionary.
Oh god, I think I'm in need of a bitch slap to reality check lah hur hur.

I've got no idea why I'm still wide awake posting in the middle of the night (or is it early morning) with my blanket, stuffed toys, pillows, bolsters all around me & aircon on to the lowest temp.
One word to describe this feeling is syiok..pada tahap maxima! *wink wink*
But still, I can't get my eyes shut. Just yet.

Hmm so far, life haf neva eva been near to the scale of good & worse.
In other words, life's a climb & I'm endeavouring to climb up till th mountain top.
Maybe it's true that shitty things like this happen for a reason.
Probably for a good cost? Well, I don't know and have yet to figure it out.
So despite that, I'm constantly reminding myself to luv lyfe tha way it is. :-D
*make the fanatic tongue's out face till eyes go sepet* (HAHA KIDDING ME OR WHAT!)

Anywae, my school break is coming to an end already - this "Wetsday".
Glad to say that I've been spending it wisely by cycling, movie-marathoning, pancing ikan(HAHA inside joke) and bla bla bla.
But the most eggciting thing I ever did was today - gg to the lib alone ard dawn time and getting myself stalked in the lib -.-
As stupid it may sounds, I felt scared or rather insecured with those 2 people.
So I just had to break the law to call Hani up for company.
Tell me now why I have to learn to be independent! =__=
I'm a kental_bangs_gal_95@life.com (HAHAHA I noe)

And as much as I hate school, I still miss it like alot, alot, alot, alot and alot, alot, alot, alot, alot and alot more..........(continue till tongue gets twisted)
Ironic right. I can't believe it too haha.
I'm missing all the things I used to complain doing for eg; writing summaries, compositions and getting chased by F.T and bla bla bla.
But out of these things, I miss my Breasties the most, even much more than alot.
And the other thing I miss doing is bursting out happy bubbles in the canteen.
Haha now I'm making my post sound as if it's kekurangan perhatian alrdy =__="

On an entirely new note, I'm moving on or at least trying to make it sound like I am.
I'm sick of over-analyzing our situation for minutes, seconds, hours and months, trying to put the pieces back together, justifying what could've and would've happen.. When it's hell not gna change a thing at all.
So I made my choice, to leave the pieces on the floor and move the fuck on! :-D

And moving on doesn't always mean moving on with another.
Mind you. Don't be juvenile.

So that's just it!
Time check and I'm off to bed!
So long, people of Earth.

Hello naive-feeling-girl, I come in peace with a feeling of lil anger.
I'm telling you, you can never be me, so quit trying.

P/S
*will be updated tomorrow* IM SLEEPY *YAWNS*