Posted on : Saturday, July 25, 2009
Posted at : 9:37 AM

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You promised me that you're not the same or comparable to other boys outside.
You promised me you won't ever leave me.
You promised me that you will never ever love another.
But now, at this time, you're just twisting your words with your own lies :(

I used to think that I'd be strong to face you when we're apart :(

I miss saying I love you, Matrep to you.
I miss hugging you whenever I feel down.
I miss laughing at you for nothing that's funny.
I miss receiving your messages that'll always put a smile on my face, even it's the littlest thing that matters.
I miss the way you glanced at me and making me feel awkward.
I miss walking endlessly with you and going round in circles.
I miss hearing your voice that'll put me to sleep.
I miss you stroking my hair.
I miss you and I'll miss you, more than compared to anything above. :(

I will always remember the time when you sent me flowers on my doorstep before I head out to somewhere else. (eventho I know I'm not the first)
I will always remember the way you glanced at me and put me into the state of kekok.
I will always remember the stupidity in your face when you're blur.
I will always remember the day when you gave me your shoulder to cry on when I had to let go of my emotions.
I will always remember all the things that we shared, the laughter and wishes we made.
I will always remember the promises you made, just you and I eventho it's broken now.
But I will forever remember you who once existed in my life :(

I never thought you could do this to me.
I've never even wished to move on from you but unfortunately you did first.
This pain is overwhelming man.
I can't seem to move on, even knowing you doing all this behind my back.

I'm yearning for the truth from your very own mouth :(

I'm disappointed that you lied to me to cover your own mistakes :(
This isn't the Yusuf I used to know last year during the mid of May.
The 10 months shared with you are wasted cause I thought I know you.
But I guess it was just a disguise from you :(

Now I can figure out why you didn't let me touch your phone.
It's all revealed now, isn't it? :')

P/S
There were sounds in my head.
Little voices whispering that I should go and this should end.
I find myself listening to it now cause I know she'll love you more than I could.
And the one who dares to stand where I stood. I'm glad you found her tho.
I won't be far from where you are if ever you should call.
You meant more to me than anyone I ever loved at all.
You taught me how to trust myself and so I say to you this is what I have to do.