Posted on : Sunday, October 19, 2008
Posted at : 9:01 PM



Hello Love! And guess what?! o.o
I bloody hate you for putting me into this bloody mess and lovely misery tsk.
HAH I'm stucked in the frickin battle of love triangle cb. _|_
I've made up my mind, to let go of everything.
Cs I never want to break both hearts & mainly bcs I really do love you two.

Dearest A,
I appreciate all the times we shared be it in Pri or Sec Sch.
I do cherish every moments we had and in fact missing it too.
Tho it's hard moving on w/o you beside me, I eventually tried.
It was really hard, very much harder than Maths EOY Paper okeh!
(IMAGINE HOW HARD IS THAT o.o)

Everytime, everyday, it hurts me seeing you.
You'll always constantly remind me of what we used to be back then.
I can't help but force myself to hate you just to forget you.
Till now I'm missing you so goddamn frickin much and loving you as much as I did before.
But being w you back isn't the best option cs I know our past will again, repeat.
And I'll end up being broken-hearten for not being a good girlf towards you.

You can see it for yourself, can't you?
It's like more than three times we tried to keep our relationship from falling and eventually it did, over and over again.
I'm really sick of losing you for a lot of times.
I'm sick of crying over you every night.
Why can't you stay and be with me always?

I guess it's best if we be this way... as friends?
Cs I learn to let go if you really love somebody.
It's just the matter of time..
Trust me, I never want to lose you ever.

To Dearest Y,
I'm sorry for being the definition of confusion to you lately.
I'm sorry to end our relationship drastically on the 17 Oct.
I never mean to do so, I never did baby.
And I never want to see you suffer and cry endlessly.

For the past one month and six days, I really had fun w you.
Every moment spent with you, will always get better than the yesterdays.
Esp the time when we were sitting down while it was raining at the 'pondok'.
HAHA how awesome can I get, commanding birds to shut up!

You made me move on with the love you shower me with, the jokes, the care and concern.
As days passes by, you healed my scarce and pain from my past.
You closed my chapter of history and opened up a new chapter of love with you.
You made me love you even more and made me move on from my past.
You were always there when I needed you, you are always there darling..
You never missed the chance of wanting to send me back home eventho it's already late at night or I'm in "Madrasah's uniform".
Never did you ever left me alone despite you knowing that I still love him.
I really need to thank you that darling..

It was never your fault that we are apart baby.
It's entirely my fault to be blinded by my past.
I really do love you and I never lied about it ok!
But thanks to love, I've let you go cause I couldn't bear to see you hurt.
Cause I just need time to think, and this isn't the end.

I still keep another half of your heart with your name on it darling.
And the keychain made by myself during DNT, that I ended up having scarce on my fingers.

I really love you and I know you know that.
I'm glad that we're back on track right now.
I'll never leave you again, not a chance baby.
I promised you, didn't I?