Posted on : Sunday, October 19, 2008
Posted at : 9:01 PM



Hello Love! And guess what?! o.o
I bloody hate you for putting me into this bloody mess and lovely misery tsk.
HAH I'm stucked in the frickin battle of love triangle cb. _|_
I've made up my mind, to let go of everything.
Cs I never want to break both hearts & mainly bcs I really do love you two.

Dearest A,
I appreciate all the times we shared be it in Pri or Sec Sch.
I do cherish every moments we had and in fact missing it too.
Tho it's hard moving on w/o you beside me, I eventually tried.
It was really hard, very much harder than Maths EOY Paper okeh!
(IMAGINE HOW HARD IS THAT o.o)

Everytime, everyday, it hurts me seeing you.
You'll always constantly remind me of what we used to be back then.
I can't help but force myself to hate you just to forget you.
Till now I'm missing you so goddamn frickin much and loving you as much as I did before.
But being w you back isn't the best option cs I know our past will again, repeat.
And I'll end up being broken-hearten for not being a good girlf towards you.

You can see it for yourself, can't you?
It's like more than three times we tried to keep our relationship from falling and eventually it did, over and over again.
I'm really sick of losing you for a lot of times.
I'm sick of crying over you every night.
Why can't you stay and be with me always?

I guess it's best if we be this way... as friends?
Cs I learn to let go if you really love somebody.
It's just the matter of time..
Trust me, I never want to lose you ever.

To Dearest Y,
I'm sorry for being the definition of confusion to you lately.
I'm sorry to end our relationship drastically on the 17 Oct.
I never mean to do so, I never did baby.
And I never want to see you suffer and cry endlessly.

For the past one month and six days, I really had fun w you.
Every moment spent with you, will always get better than the yesterdays.
Esp the time when we were sitting down while it was raining at the 'pondok'.
HAHA how awesome can I get, commanding birds to shut up!

You made me move on with the love you shower me with, the jokes, the care and concern.
As days passes by, you healed my scarce and pain from my past.
You closed my chapter of history and opened up a new chapter of love with you.
You made me love you even more and made me move on from my past.
You were always there when I needed you, you are always there darling..
You never missed the chance of wanting to send me back home eventho it's already late at night or I'm in "Madrasah's uniform".
Never did you ever left me alone despite you knowing that I still love him.
I really need to thank you that darling..

It was never your fault that we are apart baby.
It's entirely my fault to be blinded by my past.
I really do love you and I never lied about it ok!
But thanks to love, I've let you go cause I couldn't bear to see you hurt.
Cause I just need time to think, and this isn't the end.

I still keep another half of your heart with your name on it darling.
And the keychain made by myself during DNT, that I ended up having scarce on my fingers.

I really love you and I know you know that.
I'm glad that we're back on track right now.
I'll never leave you again, not a chance baby.
I promised you, didn't I?

Posted on : Wednesday, October 15, 2008
Posted at : 10:40 PM


BUT!


P/S

Yes, I'm referring to you Bestie.
How I wish I have guts to tell you so cs you've change so much.

Posted on : Sunday, October 12, 2008
Posted at : 6:47 PM

Phew I seriously thank god that I'm still alive here, living..
I never thought that this accident would've happen to my family and I, ever.
The first thing that crossed my mind was just blood and death, seriously..
I'm so traumatized, it keeps on playing on my mind tsk.

It was just yesterday, relatives and cousins came over my house.
It was just two days back when I got back with my Woodlanders Family.
It was just a few days back when I went out with the Riversidians.
And it was 3 hours ago when it happened at that particular road itself @ 3.56pm.

I still can remember it clearly, vividly..
The way the car skidded, spanned, and brake.
The screams, the tears, the impact, the panic, the pain, the everything..

I thank god everything is fine with the exception of my emotional state.
But yeah, we had some injuries here and there tho.
My backbone and heart are somehow aching.
I'm still shivering, I'm still traumatized..

For the first time I'm typing this.
I love my parents, siblings, cousins, friends and everyone. <3

SO PEOPLE.

LESSON LEARNT: PLEASE USE THE SEAT BELT EVENTHOUGH YOU'RE AT THE BACK SEAT.

P/S
The bent railing that the car skidded on tsk.


From that railing, the car spanned to here. Look @ how bad it became.

Posted on : Saturday, October 11, 2008
Posted at : 4:18 PM

BEFORE ANYTHING, MY HANDPHONE NO. HAVE CHANGED.
I'm using a temporary prepaid card due to the overused of handphone HAHA.
Jangan segan-segan to ask me the new no. thank you.
Macam paham ah ehk. -.-

PBS Hari-Raya Outing yesterday was total the gerek-ness! *wink
I never expected myself to get into a world of confusion at the same time hah-_-
Okay let's plan more outings together lovelies!
I shall update or "elaborate" more on the next post.










P/S
How can I move on when I'm still in love with you.
It's hard but I really got to be strong to face you.

Posted on : Thursday, October 9, 2008
Posted at : 4:13 PM

Raya with Riversidians Clan, yesterday October 8.
Sorry to the Sec 3s/2s NA cs I didn't take a snap of your pictures eh.
And I don't have some of the group picture either-.-

Incomplete.

Posted on : Saturday, October 4, 2008
Posted at : 2:15 PM

Posted on :
Posted at : 1:37 PM

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri!

HEHE I beg your pardon for being 4 days late okay.
I was just a lil bit too busy with my EOY. (chey macam paham)
Anyway, my hidung went sumbat suddenly w/o any particular reason.
Probably I smelled too much money ehk! *kachings*
HAHA kene sumbat ngan $1 coin agaknyer-.-

Just so you know, this is Hari Raya a.k.a Bulan Syawal.
So maknanya kita mesti extra drama to get the fucking extra kachings HAHA.
Dengan itu, aku ingin menyusun 10 jariku untuk memohon maaf kepada sesiapa sahaja tsk.

But this goes out more to people who I've sinned to esp Riversidians.
I know I had a rough start in Riverside Secondary School.
Maybe it's bcs of my major breakup with "__" who eventually has a brother there.
Due to that I may be blacklisted for being such a BIG B in that school.
But heck care, you heard it from them but not from me. *wink

Let me start with my speech w the anak melayu stylezx. (JENGJENG ah siket)

Saya, Nur Azira, anak kepada Kharil Anuar, ingin memohon maaf seaindainya saya terkasar bahasa lalu terguris hatimu dengan bahasa yang sungguh tak perlu ataupun dengan berkelakuan yang tidak senonoh. Saya tahu saya tidak disukai ramai dengan perangai saya yang amat perangai ini. Tetapi oleh kerana bulan ini ialah bulan Syawal saya mengharapkan agar perasaan yang benci, iri hati atau etc terhadap saya dapat digugurkan (amin) kerana saya benar-benar ingin memohon maaf, terutama sekali kawan-kawan yang menuntut di Sekolah Menengah Riverside. Saya pun ingin meminta maaf kepada jejaka-jejaka yang saya telah mengukirkan janji manis yang telah dijanjikan. Saya tidak bermaksud untuk melukakan hatimu dengan begitu mendalam kerana "it was meant to be". Ampun maaf dipinta dariku kepadamu.

Mind you, Allah tak suka orang yang sombong ehk.
Betol tak bedek ok! Tak percaya tanya Uztad heh.

WOOO syabas Chia oi! *kening naik-naik*
I managed to type a whole chunk of Malay tho it doesn't make sense.
Pictures shall be updated afterwards.

To end this post.
I really want to thank Boyfriend for being understanding about just now.
I don't know what will happen if I were to run and hide the truth from you.
What you should bother now is that I'm loving you more every single day with every breathe I take ok.
I'm missing you baby tsk.