Posted on : Friday, July 4, 2008
Posted at : 10:22 PM

To my Used To Be Boyf'/D's Scandal,
Honestly, I don't know what has gotten into you.
I don't know if you're trying to make me feel how I made you feel the other day.
But ini case dah melampau siak.
Trust me, I'm not and never pleading you to be with me.

"Si kecik tu blh jalan uh.im irritated. Asyik kacau A jek. A tk suke dier lah.jgn takut k?"
"Yea babe. I hope there’s no arguing in this relationship again."
"K eh,Are we still together?Do u still love me? If u ask me back eh,I still love u.."
"Yea,I still hv heart 4 u..N wat about u?Do u?"

Are you still holding on to the words you said?
Are you still holding on to the promises you promised me?
Are you doing all this because you love her but not me?
Are you doing this because of revenge?

Fuck your words.
Ask yourself, do you really mean it?
You're just hiding behind the words you speak.

I'm really disappointed in you.
And hell, you don't deserve me and neither do I deserve you.
I just thought that we could be back on track, like we used to be.
And forgetting the past since I thought you've changed after you treated me right.
But no, trusting you again was another mistake.
You lied to me and you're still the same you, trying your very best to deny that you love her still.

I'm sick and tired of this sak.
I just hate letting you go cs of insecurities w/o even hearing from you.
When would you ever speak up and be a man?
Why must she always get into the picture of me and you at the wrong time?
Was it her or just you, that welcomes her into your heart?

I've sacrificed for you, cried for you.
But did you ever appreciate it and see it?
Didn't you think through the cause of the breakup we had on January 08?
Can't you see how much I loved you?

I left H because I loved you, not him.
Despite the fact I knew he loved me more than you do.
I rejected both A(s) off because I loved you, not them.
Because of you, I lost my friends.
I left you earlier this month cs I knew you loved her and not me.
All I wanted was just to make you happy and not lie to yourself.
And what more, kau panggil aku merepek lagi ade eh.
Thanks ehk.

So you're telling me now I did an effing big mistake?
And now you want D back because you effing sympatize her?
Because she's lonely? She've got nobody to count on besides you?

Tolong ehk, if you think by typing all this I'm desperate for your brother.
Congratulations to be a newly idiot. -.-