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Blinded by Stupidity, eh?

2011-06-17T20:18:00.001+08:00

“After all the things you put me through, still I come right back. But now I know the truth, I can finally see. You only want me when you’re lonely.”

I was too blinded to realize it before but now I know what you’re doing. You just want attention and you took advantage of me because you knew I would always come back to you. I was stupid to let you use me like some easy second option.

I’m not going to be anyone’s second option. I’m either first or nothing. You played your little game with me so many times that you eventually made it obvious. The thing that’s funny is you still think I don’t know what you’re doing.

rambang mata

2009-12-21T21:44:00.002+08:00

http://towriteloveon.tumblr.com

I shifted there for a long time ago already dan saya cuma malas untuk update the new url hehe.

miley cyrus - when i look at you

2009-11-19T13:23:00.004+08:00

"Sometimes, you've to be apart from the people u love. BUT that doesn't mean you should love them any less because sometimes it'll only makes you love them even more"

Eventho I don't favour Miley Cyrus much, am still going to say that this muvee is a definitely much watch.
Touching lah sangat-sangat. Buat airmata I menitis only. Adoii!
You know, just by looking at the trailer, I got myself goosebumps already heh heh.
Tak exaggerate horz. Huak!

I am so checking out Nicholas Sparks novel from now on! HAAHAHA.
Ok dah start fanatic dah ni uh-oh.
Heh heh *smiles with chocolate stain on teeth, thinking it looks cute*

Now in total I am looking forward to watch two movies!
This, and Twilight Saga New Moon! But duit mesti kumpul lah dulu..
Maklumlah orang singket kan.. case selalu watch movies online.
Ini kerja case gaji dapat lemak jer! HAHA. *geleng kepala with no hope*

P/S
Why is it the smallest things that tear us down?
My world's nothing when you're gone.
I never meant to start a war.
You know, I never want to hurt you.

chris brown - crawl

2009-11-17T12:07:00.002+08:00

Told you, I'd still be on my two feet supporting Chris Brown all the way. *grins*

P/S
Why did I change the pace?
Hearts were never meant to race.
Always felt the need for space.
But now I can't reach your face.

droplets - colbie caillat

2009-11-08T19:32:00.010+08:00

Guess what? I miss Muhammad Yusuf Bin Abdul Rahim.
Shocked? Nah, I don't think so.

Baby, eventhough you're out of sight, you're never ever out of my mind.
I don't really know if this is gonna last, but I'm sure we can pull this through together somehow, like we always did for the past one year and few months.
I've walk down this road alone and I finally figured that all I've thinking bout is you. I don't want to lose you anymore.
I don't want us to break apart for the sixth times over i-don't-know-what reasons.
Be it if you and I are busy with our own hectic schedule, cause now I finally understand what's the use of having trust in a relationship.

My heart is filled with just too much of you.. I guess?
I love you, trust me that I do.
I promise you that I will always stand by you.

(I know I look funny but nvm that's the only two I have with me. God willing that we'll take more)

i miss you - miley cyrus

2009-11-04T11:11:00.007+08:00

AIYOMA! I MISS, WILL MISS AND AM MISSING THESE CLIQUES HUAK. *ketuk kepala kat desk*

1)OK I don't know why I uploaded this. But maybe ryte, somehow deep down in me I miss my family-tree (as you can see below this).

2007 Picture

2) Annnnnnd of course, my Pussy Biatches(hahahaha).
Nvr thot our friendship cld make it this far even aft our berry saddening separation from Woodlands Pri. Berry tragic, I cannot tahan the sadness.

Primary 5/6

Sec One

Current, 2009

3) Not forgettin' the hunkies too.
The ones who nvr fail to bring us more chaos and eggcitement!

4) My Jackson Fives, the ones who've been there for me thruout the year.
This one another berry sad story.
We are all separating into 2 different classes next year.
But I'm sure we'll pull it thru despite sitting in different classes, eventho we've been like magnets in class for almost a year heh.

5) I miss these bunch of happy-go-lucky-tapi-tak-lucky-sangat clique.
Will nvr forget ya'all for making my Sec One life havoc like mad haha :-)

6) NOT FORGETTING! My bestest bunch of classmates (look at the pic) who nvr fails to irritate me, mimic me, entertain me, keeping me occupied listening to your braggings and blablabla in class. Will miss ya'all in the class :-)
Oh! And also the times we once got close during Sec One too.
Good times eh? :P

7) Of course, I'll miss working with my bunch of intellectual girls.
It's been fun workin' with ya'all. Luv you girls!

8) LAST BUT NOT LEAST! This bunch of awhsome and eggciting people.
I don't know why I uploaded this picture but I WILL miss you all too. :-)

iyaz - replay

2009-10-29T22:42:00.005+08:00

I had my fun and my share of sweat with my fellow Classmates t'day.
But the part I like most is the "after-cip-hours" with my Girls heh heh.
Gerek u noe. And one word to describe just now is : coincidence.
But sad case lah we're all going to part into different classes next year.
How I will miss ya'all berry much :-(

P/S
Let's all cross our fingers and hope that our Class Pit at ECP will go on well heh.

whatcha' say - jason derulo

2009-10-24T00:44:00.008+08:00

"I believe that everything happens for a reason.
People change so you can learn to let go.
Things go wrong so you can appreciate them.
Cause when they're right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but your ownself.
And sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together"

I shifted to ♥ Tumblr .
Will be updating at either one lah hor. Fickle or wat! :-D

P/S
I wuv you!
Thanks k bye.

so i huff and puff to blow all the candles off

2009-10-19T14:31:00.005+08:00

HAPPY 46TH BIRTHDAY DADDY A.K.A BOI FIERCE!!! (woah I so scared alrdy lah)
Big boi alrdy leh! Nid to haf more cool in yourself to stay youthful HEH HEH.

AND HAPPY 23RD ANNIVERSARY MUMMY & DADDY!!
May the love in you both last for eternity.
Hidup mati family Khairil Anuar B Soonari lah oke! :-D

LUV U FROM THA BOTTOM OF MY HARTX!!!!!!!!!!
MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH!

Ok as you can see, I really lost my marbles.
Well I think all of it rolled down the staircase and so I lost it.
OH MY GAWSH, PLEASE COME BACK ROLLIN' TO MUMMY U BLARDY STUPID MARBLES!! -__-"

From wat I can c now, Riz is absofuckinglutely irritated with my belo-ism.
So ya wat a BFFL u are!! Sad case, gone case :(

Doesn't Everybody Want To Fall In Love- Kristinia Debarge

2009-10-18T18:34:00.004+08:00

Doesn't it feels good to be falling in love, deeply?
It's either I'm actin' like a broken record falling in love, again and again or it's just the song that keeps my mood so lovely heh heh.
God knows :)

Or maybe.. I'm just too in love with novels and coffee?
Haha whatever.

P/S

Think pink okay?

move along - the all american rejects

2009-10-13T23:56:00.008+08:00

Never can I deny how stupid and regret I felt not treating you right back then and how egoistic I was towards you.
Maybe it has always been me, and not you.
I really appreciate the times when you stayed strong and been patient with me thru out this year and months without me realizing.
But I guess it's all okay now, cuz you're already happy with where you are now.
Last long you both and may the love in you both last for eternity.
I'm sure she can treat you better than I do. That, I'm really sure :-)

As for me, no matter how much regret and remorse I feel right now, I'll try my best to polish and brush myself up.
I shall never want to commit the same mistakes I did before.
Who knows, till tomorrow comes or something? Haha.

Eventho I admit I suck playing the role as a girlfriend, at the very least I'm working on it right now.
Haha but mind you okay, I'm still the humorous chic you can ever find.

P/S
I'm sorry for everything that I put you through.
Stay happy together, forever.
I'm done.

ready to fly - amy pearson

2009-10-13T10:32:00.006+08:00

Happy One Year, One Month Annimisery, well supposingly.

I'm here not to say how much I want you and need you back in my life.
I won't beg for it, no I won't anymore.
I won't be there any longer if you were to turn your back around.
But if you do, you'd only watch me trying to forget about you.
And I always wanted you to know that you couldn't have loved me better than anyone else could.
You still do mean a lot to me than anyone I've ever loved at all.
But for now, I guess I just can't feel my heart anymore.
I believe things are better off this way.
Most importantly, I've learn to see things in an optimistic way.

Maybe.. we were never meant to be and were always meant to say goodbye.
This time, I'm strong enough to say that I love you enough to let you go.
So I'm letting you fly, love. Isn't this what you ever wanted? :')

I know that one day, you'll find another that doesn't always make you want to cry.
Don't worry, love. It will be soon before long.
Just look around you and I guess you already got her close to you.
I'm proud of you, in every way.

Till we meet again.. love?
Nah, I don't think so.

Sealed with love, kisses and hugs.

P/S
Thank you for visiting my dream and living in it last night.
Eventho my dream was like a playback of everything we used to go thru, I'm really thankful that I get to go thru it once more and see it replay.

I can never deny that I will miss every bit of it..
From the things that I used to complain and hate about you,
The endless walks that made us go into circles w/o us realizing,
You wrapping me around your arms and trying to steal kisses from me,
You and me making future plans and doing pinky promises to each other not to ever quarrel again in the future with our heads on top of each others',
And how you ever told me that you won't love another but only me as the first and last.

And even much more, you know it yourself, don't you?
But most of all, I will miss you loving me and me loving you like there's nothing else in the world that matters.

For the last time I'm saying this.
I love you, very much. And I will miss you even much more.
Maybe like some saying, look up to the sky and see the stars shining bright.
That's how much I love and miss you but it's more to like for infinity.

"There comes a time in life when you have to let go of all the pointless dramas and the people who create it and surround yourself with people who make you laugh so hard that you forget the bad and focus solely on the good. Afterall, life is too short to be anything but happy"

ada pergi, ada balek

2009-10-13T00:01:00.015+08:00

"being able to survive it, doesn't mean it was ever okay"

I'm fascinated yet dreading the fact that today marks the 13th of October.
Nope, not being clingy. Maybe am just wondering how I could ever thought of forever to exist in my dictionary.
Oh god, I think I'm in need of a bitch slap to reality check lah hur hur.

I've got no idea why I'm still wide awake posting in the middle of the night (or is it early morning) with my blanket, stuffed toys, pillows, bolsters all around me & aircon on to the lowest temp.
One word to describe this feeling is syiok..pada tahap maxima! *wink wink*
But still, I can't get my eyes shut. Just yet.

Hmm so far, life haf neva eva been near to the scale of good & worse.
In other words, life's a climb & I'm endeavouring to climb up till th mountain top.
Maybe it's true that shitty things like this happen for a reason.
Probably for a good cost? Well, I don't know and have yet to figure it out.
So despite that, I'm constantly reminding myself to luv lyfe tha way it is. :-D
*make the fanatic tongue's out face till eyes go sepet* (HAHA KIDDING ME OR WHAT!)

Anywae, my school break is coming to an end already - this "Wetsday".
Glad to say that I've been spending it wisely by cycling, movie-marathoning, pancing ikan(HAHA inside joke) and bla bla bla.
But the most eggciting thing I ever did was today - gg to the lib alone ard dawn time and getting myself stalked in the lib -.-
As stupid it may sounds, I felt scared or rather insecured with those 2 people.
So I just had to break the law to call Hani up for company.
Tell me now why I have to learn to be independent! =__=
I'm a kental_bangs_gal_95@life.com (HAHAHA I noe)

And as much as I hate school, I still miss it like alot, alot, alot, alot and alot, alot, alot, alot, alot and alot more..........(continue till tongue gets twisted)
Ironic right. I can't believe it too haha.
I'm missing all the things I used to complain doing for eg; writing summaries, compositions and getting chased by F.T and bla bla bla.
But out of these things, I miss my Breasties the most, even much more than alot.
And the other thing I miss doing is bursting out happy bubbles in the canteen.
Haha now I'm making my post sound as if it's kekurangan perhatian alrdy =__="

On an entirely new note, I'm moving on or at least trying to make it sound like I am.
I'm sick of over-analyzing our situation for minutes, seconds, hours and months, trying to put the pieces back together, justifying what could've and would've happen.. When it's hell not gna change a thing at all.
So I made my choice, to leave the pieces on the floor and move the fuck on! :-D

And moving on doesn't always mean moving on with another.
Mind you. Don't be juvenile.

So that's just it!
Time check and I'm off to bed!
So long, people of Earth.

Hello naive-feeling-girl, I come in peace with a feeling of lil anger.
I'm telling you, you can never be me, so quit trying.

P/S
*will be updated tomorrow* IM SLEEPY *YAWNS*

already gone - kelly clarkson

2009-10-07T14:28:00.019+08:00

"Love does not count on the laughter that you shared, but on the pain and tears you tried to get over with, just for the sake of holding on"

Say I would be the first and your last.
Say you're afraid of losing me.
Say you love me too much to let me go.
Say you would fight through anything to be with me in the past.
Say you wouldn't give up on me even if I do.
Say you would never want do things that will hurt me.
Say leaving me would be the last thing you'd ever do.
Say we can never be apart through any fights, no matter how hard it is.
Say I never treated and prioritized you right as a Boyfriend.
How could I if all you ever did was making me an option in your life.

Say I don't care.
Say I never needed you.
Where were you when I needed you, everytime?
You left me hanging alone, no calls and no text messages.
But I closed one eye and tried cheering up by myself cause I don't want anymore fights in us and to add up to the problems your hunching on your back.

In the end, you told me to let go and say you're sick of hurting me.
I'm sincere and I've always been from the start, you should know that.
Told you I'm strong enough to hurdle through everything with you.
But you urged me to leave and say that you'd come back for me.

I've always loved you for who you are from the start.
I never asked for you to change, thought you said you'd do all that willingly.
Never thought you'd leave me this fast.
I really don't know what to do now.

Thank you for being the bestest part in me, my life and everything.
Thank you for teaching me the word patience and love.
You made the greatest impact in my life.
Love you.. still.
Trust me when I say, nobody can do it like you.

God, help me stay strong.
I can't stop these tears from rolling down every single day.
Probably my eyes are running out of water already :(
I just can't get through a day without.. you.
I guess the tables have turned?

P/S
I really regretted the times when I took you for granted and ask you for billion times of breaking up.
Now all I ever want to ask is a trillion time for you to stay, for one last time.
It's best to say now that people will only start to learn and realize when they're gone.

cherish - unappreciated

2009-10-02T19:19:00.008+08:00

"Saw your face and you didn't look the same as yesterday.
I got the feeling that you can't seem to see, where you want to be.
Lately it ain't been the same at all, when you're here its like I'm invisible.
You don't even do the things you use to do"

Or it's either I'm just.. overreacting?
Yez most likely I am.

But hey, Im still loving you like it was the first time :)
I'm sincere and I've always been from the start.
I'm staying strong, I'll never ever leave you.

he make 'em good girls go bad

2009-09-24T00:34:00.004+08:00

I'm having the signs of insomnia :(
Probably it's because.. I'm anxious to get my trophy on stage tmr.
Goodness, berdebar-debar jantungku heh heh.

Or maybe because I'm missing you just too much.
But anyway! Yay yay I got a picture with you haha for like after a year being together. *smacks forehead*

P/S
"Well I say fuck 'em cause they don't know shit!"

megan fox is the sh..it

2009-09-19T11:57:00.001+08:00

Okay must watch video from Megan Fox heh heh.
Salutations to her and thumbs up from me man. ^o^
If you love her eating and slaughtering boys up, then this message is for you.
Be inspired. AND I mean all this literally, ok? HAHA.

the twilight saga: new moon

2009-09-16T21:49:00.006+08:00

Yay! Gerek or apa?
There's a new trailer for the upcoming New Moon muvee in December.
I know it's still a few months away, but trust me, time flies fast heh.
Hm just like how fast this year is going to end soon! Sedih sekali. *shakes head*
So baby, you book ticket siang-siang ok? Huahua.

But no kidding. Even Hari Raya is coming in a few days time..
Macam baru yesterday we started groaning over the issue to puasa eh?
Goodness, I tak boleh sabar lah you! Heh heh.

*new video uploaded*

P/S
This year, Ma successfully baked a kuih-tart with a none chewy pineapple paste.
God knows why I had to write this sentence yang sungguh the very tak perlu.
*roll eyes around everyone*

happy one year, love

2009-09-13T00:44:00.007+08:00

Happy One Year, my dear beloved Boypren :)

Eventhough we've been struggling this past few weeks, I'm glad enough that we've gotten over things and made it till here to the top.
I love you and only you no matter what.
Yeah the only one Mat that make me go loco-loco kan~ *winkwink*

Till then. See you when I see you baby.
Love you... forever? Don't worry, I will.

P/S
I remember this was th date we fought last year when we were still er.. friends!
Never ever I expected things to turn out this way.
But god, I'm thankful that you're mine (only mine, I hope) and I'm yours now.

send it on

2009-09-11T18:55:00.002+08:00

How I find this song addictive, even if it's a Disney song.
I love the part when Demi Lovato and Joe Jonas comes in.

And they are bunch of talented siblings.
Baik pe! Aku pun nak buat video with Sisty and Abang la.

P/S
A word is just a word, till you mean what you say.
And Love isn't love, till you give it away.

ignorance is his new best friend

2009-09-11T15:22:00.017+08:00

"The same tricks that once fooled me, they won't get you anywhere. I'm not the same kid from your memory baby. Well now, I can defend for myself"

Everyone have their flaws and so do I.
Doesn't mean I give you my whole heart and face to you, it can last you forever.
It's either I'm strong enough to act like I don't know anything and move on from it or I've lost my heart to feel.
I don't want to hear your sad songs in my ears. Bullshit.
I don't want to feel your pain when you always swear it's not your fault for changing. It's always you and always have been you.
I don't want to feel your pain, no, no longer.
I don't know you anymore. Because now it's all about you and your twisted words.
I'd be lying if I were to say that I don't miss the old you.
Maybe it's true second chances don't even matter because people never change.

You lost your way in your own world, your train of thoughts and most importantly lost the respect and fullest love from me whom I thought I gave to a man with pride.
What are you now? A heartless user who toy around with little girls' feelings and use them for your own advantage?
And making them feel like a kid who's in a candy store?

You're nothing compared to the value of zero now, but too bad, I've to love you for who you are. Well infact, I already did from the start, probably that's why I'm tolerating with the shits you're putting me through, instead of leaving you on the roadside.
Because I know leaving isn't the solution.
Infact, you'd only break more hearts if I do, than to break just one.

Where did we go wrong till it made you this way?
I don't like the outcome I'm seeing now. Never will.

God, bring him to right path back and light his way through, during this blessed month. Amin.

P/S
Die, die, die, you two-faced muthafucka bitch(s)!

the best days of your life

2009-09-05T12:32:00.005+08:00

Everytime I look at the video, I'd always think of you.
Doesn't this proves everyone with an organ called penis are the same? Haha.

"Does she know about the times you used to hold me?
Wrapped me in your arms and how you told me I'd be the only one?"

nasi ayam penyet power

2009-08-30T14:04:00.005+08:00

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more @click here

Hello, hello, kopi dan milo.
Sudah sekian lama saya tak update Blog kita eh. Miss kita tak?
Entah lah kenapa macam rasa tak semangat nak update these days.
I think it's because Blogger is being a bitch and so I just had to be one too.
Sad case kan but still, apologies for the drag. Teehee.
But now I'm back bringing you nuggets of updates *grins*

To start with, my life these days seems to be so gerek to the power of infinity -despite the stress.
As weird as it may sounds, I'm liking it! Heh heh.

Well school is still school, duh.
And the definition of school still sticks to the word : boredom.
So that should explain why I've not been handing my hwk and doing it way behind time.
Or is it because I'm getting lazier? O.o

Anyway, latihan jasmani or in other words, PE lesson on Friday was the awesomest! *nods head*
From Darlene's stylo-milo throw, Farah's jumping and teeth expression, Hasz rolling on the floor and to Fiza getting a sudden ache on her neck, it was so much of kekek-ism. Sumpah.
The enthusiasm in me and others was overwhelming and hangat bangat well, eventho we were fasting.
I don't know why I'm talking about P.E but I think my motive is to brag how I managed to withstand the thirst even if I screamed thruout playing Captain's Ball for one whole period.
Yeah, fascinating kan! I tahu. Heh heh.
And I'm so very gembira that my skill on catching balls is still there and not gone yet.
Because I managed to catch the ball even with Arshad's presence of being a defender ar.
Fuh boleh tahan bagus jugak aku ni eh?
Ok enough of P.E.

On an another entirely new note, yesterday was another fascinating day.
It was well-spent with my Old-Mates eventho I think the day was too short huahua.
So we did a lot of window-shopping, aimless walks and spraying of sample perfumes.
But the main highlight is that we break-fast together @Ayam Penyet Ria.
Ok ini must tell! The Ayam Penyet's chilli is very spicy sampailah muka aku merah like my DNT teacher.
Walaupun lah chilli dia pedas, the nasi ayam penyet is still power babe! Heh heh.

Afterwards, we did drop by to Esplanade for Baybeats.
And I'm feeling all so kental with Darlene when we mistaken the gig in Esplanade was Baybeats.
No wonder lah aku cakap asal Baybeats macam mendak gitu kan. Haiya padahal-padahal -.-
Nie lah baru namanya katak di bawah tempurung. Hurhur.

So around 10pm we headed back to CityHall and made our way back home.
I had to go down to DhobyGhaut station and got myself lost in my own stupidity.
All thanks to both Sisty and Brother lup, Fadh, for their very outstanding direction hmph.
Last-last, jumpa dorang at The Cathay together with Mami and Daddy.
Then Dad sent my Brother lup home and so we headed to Auntie's house nearby.
And in the car, I had to withstand Sisty's draggy nagging for being so selenger bachs huahua.
Dad had to shut her up. Thanks :D

That was all that happened.
I can't wait for tomorrow's Teachers' Day celebration @ school.
Very happening like that because Hani is dancing. Macam wow kan HEHE.

So okay I'm drained out of words.
And my stomach is grumbling like a grumpy old woman.
Ok lah bye! ^-^

P/S
I miss my Mat many-many.
Sungguh sedih sekali.

demi lovato - here we go again

2009-08-14T10:59:00.002+08:00

"I tell everyone that we are through cuz I'm so much better w/o you.
But it's just another pretty lie cuz I break down every time you come around.
Hard as I try, I know I can't quit cuz something about you is so addictive."

Singapore's 44th

2009-08-11T18:45:00.003+08:00

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National Day celebration with Chickies and cliques was marvelouz belaka! :D
Eventho at the start it started cocky with endless and aimless walks, it ended out purfect.
I thank BFFL <3 for trying to make me feel better everytime when I felt down.
Not forgetting your treat for cabbing me home from Yishun too.

Oh well, pictures speaks thousand of words. I shan't elaborate more.
Overall, I had my day with my Chickiez eventhough Hafiza and Adriani couldn't make it.

And hmm the best-est part was just having you near me.
Tho it might not be side by side, well at least you're just a few cm(s) away from me. :')
Boleh tahan happy, boleh tahan sedih lah jugak eh. Overwhelming banget.

OKLAH BYE.
Besok CT2 Malay seh. Takut I!

Oh did I forget to say that the Fireworks was eggciting?
Sangat-sangatlah eggciting sehinggakan degupan jantungku berdetap-detup heh heh.

P/S
I thought I was done with loving you, but I was wrong.
I kept on running back to you, who's now happy with his own life.
Pointless? I know.

I hope you know it ain't easy for me to let go of everything and start all over with another, babe.
Remember what you promised me in 10 years to come? :(
I wish I have much strength in me to say that I'm looking forward to tmr- like what you wrote to me in the letter.

I loved you very much.
And I realized that I have yet to stop loving you since the day we're apart.
I'll always do love you, even much more.

my jackson five

2009-08-10T10:42:00.005+08:00

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Everytime when I needed a shoulder to cry on in class or whenever, you were always there. Always, always, always and always.
Like in this kind of times when I'm troubled, you never left me crying alone.
You were always there to support and cheer me up. - Heh heh Voldemort xD
I never doubt the existence of friends when you all are around me.
I thank you for everything.

I love you four, so much.

I'm so sorry that your efforts of urging me to move on didn't work at all :(

P/S
I feel so sad and down.
I guess it's just the weather nyah.

you're not sorry

2009-08-08T11:08:00.003+08:00

Current Mood :

I've been giving out chances everytime and all you do is let me down.

It's easy for you to let go and move on with another, leaving me hanging.
This time, you took everything away from me.
You took all of me.. I lost everything and you, you gain something from it.
But one thing's for sure, you've lost me now.

I'm tired of being last to know all of your secrets.
All this while, you were just faking every word you say.
You said it was hard to move on but I guess that isn't true. Yes, it isn't.
How easy was it for you to find another and be with her?
Wasn't it fast? And wasn't it within a day?

So much for your I love you and I will stay setia with you.
Kau pijak kepala aku with all that phrases ada lah.

I hate you.

P/S
You had me falling for you and it never would've gone away.
You used to shine so bright but now I'm seeing all of it fade.

I want the old you who used to be my Bestfriend.
The one who offers me Strepsils when I got a sore throat :(
The one who I used to call Mr Hothotstuff :(
I want it all back.

Where are you now? You're lost in your own world.

I guess you're already on the run on finding a new replacement.
All the best, darling?

RHD 2009

2009-08-01T09:25:00.003+08:00

Current Mood :

These were the picz taken during RHD, from Zafren's profile.
So don't blame me for the low picture quality cause it isn't from me k. Nyahah.

Lastly, I need to confess that I'm in love with JYP already.
Probably caused by the much replays from his funky songs yang teramat-amat shiok.
Member dah faneh Korea katakan. *kening naik-naik*

Oklah goodbry! *with the pelat accents*

P/S
Spot me -I'm the kiutest in turqoise!
Woah it even rhymes HAHA -_-

nenek keropok

2009-07-27T14:55:00.004+08:00

Current Mood :

As random as this may sounds, I really lurve those galz up there! Not kidding man, really.
Thanks babez for cheering me up and making my Saturday absolutely lively and hilarious.
How I wish Hasz could join us that day too seh :( -See, I tak lupakan u babe heh <3
But seriously ar, I found myself smiling from ear to ear after much inside jokes about *coughs* rabbies.
Kekek lah sangat, sampai air mata semua menitis-nitis jatuh ke pipi.

Aside from that, I'm back home early today and second thoughts, I really think I shouldn't have man -.-
Cuz I was expecting Ma to be at home, watching her favourite Mexico & Indonesian telenovela or is it sinetron? Or whatever you may call it lah, but unfortunately she's not at home. Sedih, sedih, sedih :(
So in other words, I'm currently alone at home, freaking out which I know it's sungguh tak perlu.
To think back, I think I SHOULD be freaking out after remembering about the Nenek Keropok tu. Very ngeri lah. :O
But zeriously lah, that nenek got instant glamour with her getting into the new headlines.
Not surprised if somebody were to set up Facebook account for her either.
Then she'll be what people call a Nenek Super Canggih HAHA.

Kecoh per Chia -_-

So school today was awesome, aku pun tak tahu mengapa.
Maybe it's because everyone near me was trying their best to make me laugh haha.
Hm but amongst all jokes, the best one was the pokerface song composed by Riz.
I have yet to get over it eventho the joke is considered as basi since it was already yesterday's. But still it caused me to ketawa terbahak-bahak alone in class just now when everyone was attentively learning huahua.

Besides that, I had a very "fresh" morning today and all thanks to my legong-izm.
My face expression turned into something very priceless that noone really can describe how HAHA.
It all happened when I plugged out the headset from my handphone and suddenly the music blast to the whole class.
Scary kan. I can even feel my heart thumping louder than the music that was playing at a maximum volume -.-

Ok that's all for today's entry.
I'm already drained out with what else to type on.

Before I end, I must say that I really had a great weekend on the 25th and 26th.
Oh yeaz I really shouldn't have gone to RP on Sunday man. God knows why :P

P/S
I still do keep another half of your heart, love.
I hope you do too cause I never loved someone as much I love you right now.
Let's just pray to God you won't be as desperate as you were to hook on other girls as replacement huh huh huh?
Get well soon anyway.

i miss, you

2009-07-25T09:37:00.005+08:00

Current Mood :

You promised me that you're not the same or comparable to other boys outside.
You promised me you won't ever leave me.
You promised me that you will never ever love another.
But now, at this time, you're just twisting your words with your own lies :(

I used to think that I'd be strong to face you when we're apart :(

I miss saying I love you, Matrep to you.
I miss hugging you whenever I feel down.
I miss laughing at you for nothing that's funny.
I miss receiving your messages that'll always put a smile on my face, even it's the littlest thing that matters.
I miss the way you glanced at me and making me feel awkward.
I miss walking endlessly with you and going round in circles.
I miss hearing your voice that'll put me to sleep.
I miss you stroking my hair.
I miss you and I'll miss you, more than compared to anything above. :(

I will always remember the time when you sent me flowers on my doorstep before I head out to somewhere else. (eventho I know I'm not the first)
I will always remember the way you glanced at me and put me into the state of kekok.
I will always remember the stupidity in your face when you're blur.
I will always remember the day when you gave me your shoulder to cry on when I had to let go of my emotions.
I will always remember all the things that we shared, the laughter and wishes we made.
I will always remember the promises you made, just you and I eventho it's broken now.
But I will forever remember you who once existed in my life :(

I never thought you could do this to me.
I've never even wished to move on from you but unfortunately you did first.
This pain is overwhelming man.
I can't seem to move on, even knowing you doing all this behind my back.

I'm yearning for the truth from your very own mouth :(

I'm disappointed that you lied to me to cover your own mistakes :(
This isn't the Yusuf I used to know last year during the mid of May.
The 10 months shared with you are wasted cause I thought I know you.
But I guess it was just a disguise from you :(

Now I can figure out why you didn't let me touch your phone.
It's all revealed now, isn't it? :')

P/S
There were sounds in my head.
Little voices whispering that I should go and this should end.
I find myself listening to it now cause I know she'll love you more than I could.
And the one who dares to stand where I stood. I'm glad you found her tho.
I won't be far from where you are if ever you should call.
You meant more to me than anyone I ever loved at all.
You taught me how to trust myself and so I say to you this is what I have to do.

heartless

2009-07-24T18:07:00.007+08:00

Current Mood :

My eyes are tired of crying over & over again, even my lenses are drying up.
Due to that my lenses are already sticking to my eyeballs. Haiya -.-
I guess today's the day that proved everyone in school that I was none other than a cry baby :(
Eventho I tried to hold everything back, just seeing you everytime tears me apart.
Do you ever know why? Bcs you used to mean more to me than anyone I've ever loved at all.
But no longer now, I guess. I just can't feel my heart anymore now.
I hardly know you now or it's either I've never knew you at all, from the start we met.

You know, I can never forgive you just with you texting me multiple and zillions of sorries.
I want to hear it, not read it.
Maybe you're just hiding truths behind those words you sent me through those text messages.
I wonder if you got balls to say that infront of my face.

I wonder why you can hang on the phone and meet up a "friend" who lives far away from Woodlands, while with me who lives in Woodlands, you simply can't spare your time or minute to call or meet me just to tell me the truth that I want to hear.
I wonder why she gets to exchange bags with you when going to school just like a couple do while with me, you don't.
I wonder why must they get the treatment like a girlfriend really needs to have, when I don't get to feel it at all.

I guess I just wasted my tears on you when I know that there are even better males with balls outside. *slaps forehead*

And congratulations for manipulating truth, Mr.
You manage to make people hate somebody just because he let me know the truth about you.
Such a denial and coward you are, aren't you? You need backups to make you feel stronger.
And I guess people who listened to you have such small minds to believe that somebody did that for the sake of breaking us apart. Idiots.

P/S
I'm having real nightmares, really.
I have this girl haunting me, in my dreams and also in my real life.
She, with her freaky eyes and lips like black roses, with distorted eyebrows is appearing in my daily life.
Help, make her stay out from my life! :(
*recites a prayer*

Wonder Girls VS Wonder Baby

2009-07-18T10:09:00.004+08:00

Tak ke budak kecik ini very comel! Haha lovely sey esp her kenyit-kenyit mata.
On a brighter note, she cheered me up and made my morning even brighter.
How I love Koreanz! *chuckles*

It's already 10.11am, I have yet to hear from you.
I've been waiting since the last message you sent me, yesterday.
Not a call, even.

diarrhoea attack

2009-07-14T13:08:00.005+08:00

Current Mood :

As funny and disgusting the title may sound, I AM suffering from it!
NOT KIDDING REALLY!!!!!!!!
I had to run back home with my trembling legs when I'm alrdy half-way to school with Yusuf & Hani. Maybe not half-way but a few metres away from school -.-
Very much frustrating okay! Cheh member mengamok ar! >:O
Still, thanks to the both of them for accompanying half way and Yusuf, for carrying my plastic bag since I was very tak larat alrdy.

Even Abang is being sent back since he's having a high fever hurhurhur!
So obviously, I didn't get to attend school lah.
Precisely that's why I'm blogging at this time when all of my classmates are busily studying for Maths heh heh. *happy face*
But one thing that I regretted not going to school is because of Art :O
All of my efforts of making that Harry Potter hat was down to the drain :(
Sedih per Chia? Sedih nangis ar Chia HAHAHA.

Currently, I'm feeling very giddy tahap maxima.
Probably it's due to the much running in and out from the toilet HAHA.

Ok sabar, I just realized how kecoh I am just talking about diarrhoea.
Mintak paiseh ar please? *chuckles*

Right so right now, I'm killing my time with MSN and asking nonsensical q. to BFFL.
BFFL sounds gay but it stands for Best Friends For Lyfe anyway hua hua.
You won't eva want to know what was the q. I asked him! It's too shitty REALLY -_-
AND GUESS WHUT! I found out one freaky discovery! :O
Even he has an upset stomach like I do. This is coolioz!!!
Now this is what I call jiwa nyahah.

On another note entirely, yesterday was my 10th Month with Boypren.
It wasn't spend well, according to him since I spent that time doing hwk together with Darlene, Fura and himself too.
Well it's ok, I understand that people like him have high-expectation from a *coughs* kool gal lyke me HEEE.

Alright, bubbye! :D

P/S
I've got the best thing in the world because I got you in my heart.
Let's hold hand together so we can share our screwed up little world forever.
Maybe someday even the sky will be coloured with our love.

Princess Protection Program (L)

2009-07-04T12:05:00.007+08:00

This muvee is a must watch for all, but I guess preferably for girls.
Not only because there's Selena and Demi, it is more to the interpretation of friendship shown by them.
Really, really genuine to the power of infinity okay!
Overall, it's a two thumbs up from me! *raise eyebrows*

Anyway, sorry for the bite sized entry haha.

I'm hooked to B.O.F already.
How can you like eva resist their cute faces?

knock chu' down

2009-07-03T18:51:00.010+08:00

Current Mood :

OK my stomach has been grumbling A LOT for toilet bowl today grr -.-
Frust tonggek ar babe. Naik berpeluh aku tahan-tahan. -_-
And I'm NOT kidding HAHA really.

Anyway, one thing that kept me from updating is the hectic schedule of school.
And not forgetting my lazi-ism yang tahap critical.
Entah lah kenapa macam rasa tak semangat gitu nak update.
Sad case but still, apologies for the drag! :(
So now I'm back bringing you nuggets of information and updates haha.

First week of school was zeriouzly fun and slacking, I loike.
But what makes it sungguh tak gerek is the part when we had to go thru the HODs before school to check our attire and temperature due to H1N1.
Ini part buat aku kancheong siket please heh heh. *tries hard to stay under shades*
So much for being Bodoh Binte Degil eh? Orang dah tegur taknak dengar pulak tu tsk.

Aside from that, a lot of my teachers are being replaced with brand new ones.
Semua fresh from the oven nya haha! Except for my new Geog Teacher, obviously.
Itu tak payah bilang pun dah tahu. xD
But overall, I love the new teachers. Macam happening like that esp my Co-Form teacher.
Fuh I swear you never ever had a teacher like her before HAHA. :D
Rugget macam nugget ar dia. And happening habis-habisan too.
Well she lightens up the class very much, can't deny that.
Tabik, Puan.

So supposing today, I planned to tag along Farah and Darlene to Town after sch.
At first they planned to go there with our School Uniform on.
Tak glamorous, I know. Apa lagi dah belengas with all the sweat dripping down kan.
So plan turned to an official one since we're going out with home clothes.
Whatever the plan was, at last I didn't go eventho I was super enthu and eggcited even before the bell rang. -.-
Case semangat lima minit ajer hua hua.

Before I start biding goodbye, I just want to say how delicious Bandito looks like in TV.
Member tgh kempunan lah seh heh heh.

Alright, sampai sini sahaja for today's post.
Taking care! (LOL xD)

To all Anak A.B.U (Angkatan Bawah Umur) out there, Happy Youth Day!
Heh heh dapat holiday lagi yay yay. *happy face*

And to Michael Jackson, you may leave this world.
But your song will always live in all of our hearts.
I love you forever. R.I.P, may Allah be with you.
And thank you for your songs that lived with me since I was a toddler.
(This isn't a semangat lima minit thing anyway)

P/S
How precaution & fanatic people can be for the H1N1 disease?
Sehinggakan lagu ni pun boleh jadi Hits haha.
Baik ar baik, never wrong to be precaution.
Like some saying, biar fanatic jangan pathetic heh. *grins like crazy*

And one thing for sure.
I'm frickin addicted to this Korean Song heh heh.
Thanks Farah, Hafiza, Adriani and Shara!

Haha, do you realise that I have so much to share in this post.
How wonderful youtube can be? :D

belated updates

2009-06-18T14:04:00.007+08:00

Current Mood :

I, Nur Azira, anak kepada Khairil Anuar, officially declares myself getting dumb-er and lazier as each days passes by.
Reason is because I've been feeling really tired and my braincells are as tho it's deceasing alrd.
(Man, I should really stop my habit of tucking myself to bed late :[ )
So that should explain my weeks of disappearance in my blog heh heh.
But due to my loyal fans and readers urging me to update, I'm hyped up with much enthusiasm to blog today regarding the Sentosa Cum Vivo Outing. :D
In other words, MY BLOG IS UPDATED DUE TO POPULAR DEMAND BEIBEH! *kening up-down*

Anyway, June Holidays are a bore to me since there isn't anything eggciting to do.
Aside from mugging, watching teevee, exercising, surfing the NET & outings, what more is there to do?
I'd rather kill braincells in school, hearing long lectures, doing piles of homeworks and MOST IMPORTANTLY, not giving myself a second to wonder how bored life is -.-
Even the weather is being such a bitch lately, to stop me from going out.
Wahai manusia, start saving GAIA already la! -.-

Well aside from that, June Holidays also made me turn into a Kambing.
Reason is because my timing for bathing is delayed to evening instead.
Rabak-ness right, I noe. So much for being an Anak-Dara. -.-

For my level of slow-ness, it is soon touching 100%.
I'm already starting to stagger at every sentences when I talk.
And in Malay, it's called g-a-g-a-p.
I had to face much embarrassment with Sisty's Boyfie the other day for staggering at every sentences that I say, especially when I put much confidence in my face. :O

So you see, holidays aren't always fun. :'(

Back to the Sentosa Trip on 16th of June, things went perfectly fine except for my bloody hair.
No surprises on that cuz it has always been very bitchy towards me -.-
But when we were eating at the Banquet, something unexpected happened.
Well I supposed the man in the forties who randomly walked up to us and gave us $20 was really concerned about me not eating while others did.
Because he actually pointed and talked about me not eating when putting that $20 on our table.
Actually, the reason I didn't gobble up on anything was because my stomach was in a temperamental state.
But really, that man is zeriously kind enough to walk up and give us $20 tho that actually made me feel kinda demoralized HAHA.
I guess nobody can resist my puppy face hua hua xD
To sum things up, it was really fun yet exhausting. :)

So that's all for now.
Updates on the pictures shall be done afterwards okay.
Byebye, my faithful readerz! :D

P/S
I love my Boyfrienzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.
And I'm blessed to have you back in my life, really. :)
So here's the wish that you've been wanting me to post up in my blog : Happy 9th Months, 5 Days darling.

Sentosa Cum Vivo

2009-06-17T21:30:00.007+08:00

Happy Birthday, Nur Farah Binte Mohamed (?) heh.
Hope you'll lead a very happy and eggciting life ahead. :D
And I hope that our friendship will go on stronger okay?
Stay cute and hippy always mah darling! Haha.
Loves, C!

Anyway, in every pictures you would spot my smile yang very tak iklas.
Jangan ambil hati cause my muscles really hurts smiling for almost every minute :(

Well what I learnt on that day was to embrace our curves and body.
Because real woman has real body. :D
It's just the matter on how you feel confident & proud about it, right?

hap, happy birthday to me

2009-06-04T00:00:00.007+08:00

Current Mood :

Hap, Happy 14th Birthday to me! Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday to me!
And Vynx too, who's exactly a year older than me HAHA. x_x
I'm glad I'm turning a year older and thankful my life still isn't over. *tears of joyz*
And I've never thought half of the year could come this fast -.-
But most importantly, I'm proud of myself that I'm able to stand strong throughout this year.

From the girl drama which caused me to lose friends that I never wish to lose,
From losing the sweetest Boyf that I have always wished for,
From losing the faith and hope I have in myself that made me almost give up,
I managed to pull it through with my head still held up high, I survived from the war that I never really thought I would.
Well here I am now, still holding on to what I call life? :')

Though I don't really feel enthusiastic over my 14th since it isn't like what I exactly expected, I'm still happy enough of what I've become today.
Now that makes me feel like a strong 14 year old girl today, typing this post.

With much gratitude from me to the people who stood by me when I needed a shoulder, I just want to say that I appreciate every littlest thing that you all did.
You taught me the meaning of unconditional love, that I never really knew.
People like my Family, Adriani, Darlene, Dinah, Farah, Fariz, Yusuf and classmates even who comforted me when I breakdown in class the other day, I owe you all a chunk of thank you(s).
If it wasn't for all of you, I don't know where will I stand now? :(
I love you all for real.

Not forgetting, thanks people for the Birthday wishes though I never expected any.
And for those who took up their time to wish me exactly 12am, I really appreciate it.
Just so you know, I suck at translating my feelings to words heh heh.
So I really appreciate like alot, alot, alot, alot, alot, alot and much more alots.

Most importantly, I've learn to give and take in life.
I'm sorry to the ones that I've done shit to before, especially Yusuf, Hani and Siti.
I just can't help myself, sorry.

Let's just hope tomorrow will be a wonderful day at Nenek's house, celebrating my Birthday.
I hope Mummy will grant me my wishes too heh heh.

With much loves,
C

new moon

2009-06-02T13:16:00.002+08:00

Current Mood :

Caution : Leaking of emotions upon the upcoming New Moon movie!

I AM SO EGGCITED OVER THE UPCOMING NEW MOON MUVEE IN NOVEMBER! *runs around*
Masih lambat kan, I noe. But still, it's really making me butt itchy to sit calmly on the chair and wait for it's release!!!
Lemme do an advanced "money-keeping" for the movie tix hahahaha!
Woa sungguh tak perlu seh, Chia.
Ok maybe this happens to people who are obsessed for Stephanie Meyer's Book tho I only read the Twilight Series lolz. -_-

So do enjoy the Official New Moon's trailer.
Tell me if you jump up with joy and scream like crazy after watching it.
Cuz I did infront of the screen, screaming how fab-u-loz the movie will be haha.
And ya I'm typing with much enthusiasm and fanatic-ness, even my hands are getting cold. -.-

Ok this post is especially for Twilight fans.
I'm just keeping ya'all up-to-date with the upcoming stuffs haha.
Like real sia -.-

Isn't Jacob getting hunkier than Edward Cullen? *buckets of droolz*
So Bella, me no longer jealous over you and Edward kissing ok? HEH.
But still, I wish it was me beside him huahua. *looks down*
Why must you turn him off LOL.

P/S
My Bday's coming in 2 days time.
I'm not expecting much anw.
Just hoping for a great time with Family will be nice and perfect :)
How magnific can I be? :D

boom boom pow

2009-05-29T18:43:00.004+08:00

Current Mood :
(How I wish I could jump that high -.-)

I, Nur Azira Bte Khairil Anuar, officially declares herself feeling happy and satisfied over her results.
After all the murdering of brain cells and sacrificing of sleep, it was overall paid off with both good results and remarks.
How satisfied can I feel beibeh? Maklumlah, first time you know. *shakes butt*
I have never thought that I'd ever pass my Sci and Geog, leaving only Maths a U-Grade. *wipes forehead*

Overall I must say I'm proud of myself but still, disappointed over Eng and Malay.
I could've achieved a Band 2 if only I did better for both Paper 2 hmph -.-
Tetapi tidak mengapa, I've given my best at least teehee.
Ini adalah sesuatu pencapaian yang amat terhebat dalam rekod saya selama dua tahun saya bersekolah di Riverside hehz sumpah.
Saya juga berharap ganjaran saya diberi dengan memakbulkan kehendak saya can?

Anyway, the question that F.T asked me just now is still yet to be answered and I'm still cracking my head to find the answer.
I wonder who actually made me feel so motivated to work hard.
Or is it caused by what had happen earlier of this year? Maybe yes.

Ok apart from that, June Holidays are already here. YAYZZZZZZ MAN!
Sangat-sangatlah cepat sehinggakan saya tidak menyedarkan ia sudah tiba hehz.
My B'day is also drawing nearer which is on next Thursday. O.O
I really can't wait for the upcoming events seh, very eggciting liddat! -_-
Besides events, I've also planned to make full use of mua holidays with working out and mugging. How hardworking right?
HEH HEH ME REALI CAN'T W8 4 IT TO HAPPEN OH PWEASEZXZX! xD

Anyhoots, I've been having this eagerness to dye my hair red again.
See, tak serik-serik kan? I know, kata esai mah heh heh. PUUIK!
Hmm let me just use my charm to physco Sisty or Dad to buy me the dye. :D
Well let's hope I'll enjoy being me the whole of June sepuas-puasnya.

Ok I'll end my post here.
Takecare humans, have a great holiday ahead okay!
Lup euu oll lotz! Muah <33333

Let's just hope I'll memupukkan kembali minat saya dalam fotografi.
Cuz I miss being a whore with my Motorola Razr V3xx phone. *rub eyes*

hoorayz!

2009-05-17T09:56:00.008+08:00

Current Mood :

First thing first, Mid Year Examination is finally over YAYZXZX!
Secondly, there'll be no school on Monday and Tuesday! Hip hip hoorayz!
(PS: This news doesn't apply to students who're still sitting for it btw)
Thirdly, June Holidays are drawing nearer and so is my Birthday! :D
How great can this be man? *shakes butt from left to right*

BUT still, I feel sorry for the Upper Secs who have yet to finish their papers.
So best of lucks for your upcoming papers? Teehee.

Ok apart from that, I'm feeling sepuas-puasnya gumbira.
I no longer have to sacrifice my beauty sleep just to burn midnight oil heh.
And I really hope mua Eng, Malay and Sci results will be paid off man. -.=
Talking about results, I'm ready to see a blardy big-fat-bold-underlined U grade for Maths heh heh.
I flunked Paper 2 which some of the brainiacs claimed that it was easier.
Is it me being too dumb or them being too, just too much cleverer than I am?!
HMPH I FEEL SO DEMORALIZED OH PUHLEASEZXZX! ME NO LIKEY!

Hmmm I know you'd be asking why am I even here at this time when I'm supposed to be jogging right heh.
Reason is because nobody woke me up and I don't have any company that is errr at least alive at this timing pfft.
Well you should know by now that I have issues on doing things alone huahua.
So there goes my morning jog for today, abandoned. -.-
I bet by the time I'm done posting, they'll be awake, asking me why did I wake up so early grrr.

Anyway before y'all forget, mua Birthday is coming in 3 weeks time heh heh.
You know, I'd never waste my time typing this if I don't expect anth in return xD
Ok joking haha.
But am really looking forward for it tho I know they'll be nothing great.
Well at least I'm turning 14 soon haha. Yay? *looks down*
(what's so great about turning 14, chia? it's not even a legal age -.-)
Nevermind at least I'm still young, sizzling hot and fresh yes? HAHAHAHAHA!

Well currently I'm scratching my head like an ape.
I don't know where should I head to tomorrow and day after tomorrow man.
Come ooooooooooooooooooon I don't want to watch Angels and Demons seh.
And neither do I want to rot like an apple in the house, being another potato couch.
Someone save meeeeeeeee~
Ok let me just comfirm with Fura and Darlene first before I start being a paranoid -.-

Okay till here peep-oll.
Lup euu all 4 lyfe heh! <3333333

P/S
I wonder where did mua Yusuf I know, gone to? :(
Stay strong anyway.

me lup cameroid.com <3

2009-05-17T09:32:00.004+08:00

How funny can my face ever get man? x'D

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P/S
Pictures aren't always suppose to be perfect heh.
:D

numba numba heh heh

2009-05-10T13:52:00.005+08:00

Current Mood :

I've heard this song for like err bazillions times but just today, I found out about tha video x.x
Oh well here goes another video about friends being a hook up after for so long of keeping away the looove from each other.
I find it cute with a touch of sweetness in the end, I like it seh!
I can just feel it heh heh~ *kening naik-naik*
Oklah diam. I better start mugging for Sci and Geog seh! :B

Do pause mua playlist before playing the video, in case if you're wondering how to -.-

P/S
I AM SHAGGED AFTER RUNNING UP AND DOWN THE HILL @ ADMIRALTY PARK.
Believe it or not pee-pole! I am that enthusiastic on achieving a pair of toned legs.
Heh heh this is just the beginning, Chia.
Tsktsktsk.

out of randomness

2009-05-07T18:39:00.008+08:00

Current Mood :

Chris Pine is so mine heh heh.
Well at least his picture motivates me to study mua Malay! :D
(unlike somebody who's enjoying his "shisha moments" with his cliques HAHA)
Heh heh gura only lah, gee!

Anyway, wish me best of lucks for tomorrow's Malay Paper peep-oll.
Though I don't really flunk my Malay heh heh just in case only.

OH SCREAM PEOPLE, SCREAM & RUN PEOPLE, RUN! D:
Maths Paper is like err drawing closer in 6 days time? *pulls hair*
Now isn't this just the right time to insert my fav phrase : oopsie boobsie heh~

Before I go, I'd like to wish a Happy Mother's Day to every Mummies out there.
I have never cried during any OMMS presentation before but this video really did.
Do play and check it out ok? Amatlah menyedihkan tsktsk.

Ok lah sudah, best of lucks people for your MYE.
And I'll do a proper update when I'm done mugging teehee.

P/S
Oh, you're just like a piece of red meat, waiting for me to chop you off into pieces.
Wait till I lay my sharp knife that'll pierce thru your fleshy flesh GRRRRRR~

Oh yes, yes~
I'm becoming one of those paranoia and disturbia already.
AM I SICK OR WHAT SIAL OMFG!

advanced update

2009-04-29T02:17:00.005+08:00

Current Mood :

Blog shall be on hold till I feel like updating heh heh.
Like some other Bloggers might say, MYE is in a few weeks time, so that is the reason why, besides my malas-izm to update lah hor. *grins*

Anyway, I'm very particular about the Swine/Pig/Pork/Babi/Kinzel/ETC? Flu sickness.
Hearing about that makes me feel much more fucking sicker hua hua.
I can just imagine their round, soft, flabby pink nose with two big holes on them.
Can you imagine? Yucks kan? *faints*

So people, please do refrain yourself from kissing due to this sickness.
I'm talking sense okay, trust me that I am heh. ^o^

Time-check, it's 2.22 in the morning already.
All thanks should go to the Malay Narrative Composition that took away my sleep.
But nevermind lor, it was still worth it lah since I got to know more about George William Sampson. (See! I even know his full-name tahu)
Cause I wrote one whole composition which consist over more than a hundred fifty words all about him HAH! Err.. to think of it, maybe just a little too much -.-
Heh so much of being a Miss Obsessive towards him. x.x

Enough for now lah.
I want to get my beauty sleep already.
Miss me more, make my curly eyelash drop tau heh heh. *blinks eye*
Byezxzxzxzxzxzzx.

P/S
Why would you even think I'm using you?
Honestly, you DON'T even have anything that makes me want to even use you.
Sorry to be mean anyway.
I still love and care for you okay, Bestf.

i'm getting emotional :(

2009-04-26T02:41:00.002+08:00

Current Mood :

Is it me getting more emotional or is it the love-songs are getting sicker? *smacks head*
Seems like my teardrops are dripping down like raindrops during Moonsoon season.
Sigh how worst can this be?

Now, I can't get myself to sleep despite it's already 3.08am.
Grrr this is very frustrating.

P/S
I'm sorry Y, I really am.
I'm sorry I ain't there when you needed me at most, when you always do.
I'm sorry for all the nasty things I said.
I'm sorry for such being a bimbo bitch towards you.
I'm sorry for leaving you hanging every time.

It was never my intention to hurt you in any way.
Like you said, you should've cared for yourself more than you do for me.

I hope things will get better on your side, darling.

Call me soon. :(

Am really sorry, love.
And I miss you :(

moronic bastard

2009-04-21T18:47:00.005+08:00

Current Mood :

Let me start off by saying today is the worse day to the tahap infinity, OK?
Chia geramlah sangat-sangat! GRRRRRRRRRR. *kening berkerut*

The main highlight in this post is : my $14 savings (in my wallet) for Mum's B'day tomorrow is simply being stolen.
In other words curi. Yes, C-U-R-I! Frustrating kan?
I'm very upset and disappointed to the tahap maksima plus infinity sangat-sangat.
My efforts of saving up money for Mum's B'day tmr is drowned into the farking big parit. _|_
I was just about to purchase and comfirm with Sisty regarding the cake.
And there goes my disappointment and tears rolling down my cheeks after figuring out that my money went poof!
I cannot carry this emotion man. Macam nak cekik-cekik, slaughter the thief.
This is really unfair sial :(

Starting of today, I had a bad day and my hair was like terburai-burai all over.
After much cursing while on the way to school, I almost slipped down a mud puddle.
Well it almost but fortunately no, I didn't. All thanks to my mighty legs.
Tak sia-sia eh, ada kaki macam gajah like this hehe. x.x
So okay fine, I appreciate you big legs! *smiles from ear to ear*

OK no mood already.
I'm really about to blow up like this!

And it's the matter of time I will be like a paranoid, like this.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
Let me end this with one word : nabey!

K BYEZXZXZX :B

non-stop heatszx

2009-04-17T23:44:00.009+08:00

Current Mood :

OK I'm sangat-sangat in love with George Sampson heh. O.O
Enjoy this video sepuas-puas hati but tolong don't jatuh cinta with him cause he's mine. Nyah.

Anyhoots, I'm dying to watch 17 Again.
Ask me out please korang? Boohoo.
O.O I think Zac Efron is getting hunky-er to the power of infinity seh. Huakhuak. *smacks head*

K thx for reading mua blog.
Updates shall be done another day when I'm not in the period of malas-izmx heh.
Buaizxzx~

*faints HAHAHA*

P/S
I had the funnest and eggciting Friday today, despite that it's 17th.
Awhsum right?

belated, current, advanced wishes

2009-04-15T16:40:00.008+08:00

Current Mood :

To start off, I think I'm getting stupid and slower each and everyday.
Reason being is, I kept on backspacing every words that I typed, over and over again.
And that obviously makes me spend more than half an hour just to post.
Tak ke frustrating tu! GRRRRRRRR.
Ok well, at least I'm done writing with my opening paragraph heh.

So! On Monday I had NAPFA test with some other classes.
I was amazingly surprised I scored mostly A's for all stations except for Standing Broad Jump. :(
You know, the furthest I could jump was only for a few inches.
OK maybe not inches but just CENTIMETERS away from the starting point.
I bet kalau katak lompat pun lagi jauh seh.
K bedek haha! xD

My point of telling is obviously not to humiliate myself as much as I did when I jumped for more than 5 times -.-
Instead I'm here to say that I just can't jump with both legs since I was a baby.
I can only skip, how pathetic kan. Seberapa banyak semangat or force I put inside myself pun I still die-die tak boleh buat.
Well nevermind, at least it was a p-a-s-s.
Hmph! I can still merasakan the belen-belen of paiseh-ness seh.
I-FEEL-LIKE-CRAP OH PUHLEASE(!) *pulls hair*

OK enough of NAPFA, seriously.

School today was fun, for idk what reason huahua.
PE was enjoyably tiring, we had to run for 4 rounds up and down the staircase since it was raining.
Still, I run sepuas-puasnya despite the fact I had muscle cramps all over mua legs.
Again it was paid off because I find myself the first few girls to reach back HEH.
I think I'm starting to love running. O.O

Anyway, tomorrow is Thursday, 16th of April.
Before I forget, tomorrow is Muhammad Saifudin Bin Hamran's 14th B'day.
So yeah! Happy Birthday, Apin!
Do blow as much candles as you can and make all your wishes come true okay?
Semoga you live long and have an eggciting year now and then. :)
Though we had much complications last year, I still do wish the best for you yaw!
Takecare, childhood friend. *grins*

So this marks the end of my post for now.
I'm still lacking of the "syiok sendiri feeling" to post more.
I'm having this unexplainable tired feeling these past few days to the power of infinity.
And I think I'm slowly developing to be a much more emotional person. -.-
Totally tak boleh angkat this emotion man.

OK bye lah.

overdued updates

2009-04-09T21:27:00.006+08:00

(Edited)

Current Mood :

Ok I'm currently feeling maha tired and maha exhausted seh!
And, and, and! I'm feeling so dizzy. Mangkuk betul! -_-
But tidak mengapa, since there were a lot of awh-some and mighty great news/events that happened this week, I shan't waste this time to update. ^o^
See, am I just so sweet and dedicated to this beloved blog of mine? Heh.

Hmm so! I'm proud sangat-sangat to announce that we, 2/1, won the Debate against 2/2. Yay me! Yay us four! *muka fanatic*
Well at least with this achievement, it proves that I contributed (at least something) to bring glory to 2/1 kan?
Err so.. ALL HAIL THE DEBATERS OF 2/1 PEOPLE HAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAZX.
Perangai masyallah sungguh seh -.-

Besides that, I'm also somehow honored for today, to be standing on stage, (once again) with my never-ending-chirping-voice, announcing the Winners for the Storytelling Comp. x.x
And I've never expected our VP could be so "photogenic", in a way, to be posing like.. what you call an "act-chio" pose, despite his garang-garang taik kuching face huakhuak. Puik! .__.

Anyway, Mass Run was held today @ Innova JC.
Thanks to that, I managed to flee away from that monstrous ugly ferocious teacher hehe. Mission accomplished hurray!
So as for the Mass Run, I was unexpectedly energetic and eager to run sehinggakan ia mendorongku tuk membeli Chocolate Boost and a Sportade drink. Fanatic kan, I know!

Well at least in the end, I got myself the 4th or I think 5th, 6th, 7th, 10th position for ONLY my Class under the Girl's Category.
Cross finger leh, I mati-mati want to get Top 10 for for my Class under the Girls Category haha! *prays hard*
As for the overall, I don't think I am since there was 2/2 and 2/3 that ran with my class though I didn't saw anybody overtaking me except for my classmate.
HAHAHAHA it is either because I was too slow or I was already at the front -.-

And before I can even forget!
When I ran pass the I-Gantry system, I got a fuckening bad cramp that almost made me pass out. >.<
For Arshad, he isn't even helping when he told me about getting Heat-Stroke!
Still, thanks to my Classmates and Teachers who at least cared for me. <3

After getting myself recovered, I went cheering for Bestfriend when he was running on the stadium track.
I was cheering like mad but unfortunately he couldn't see AWWWWW.
But he should thank me that he managed to pace himself to the finishing line.
I bet he was thinking of me kan, kan, kan! HEHEHEHEHEHE

So after waiting for him about half an hour, he sent me back home.
Along the way, we started crapping and talking tong-sampah non-stop.
We stopped by a void deck and rested for a while since he was fugging tired heh.
Well actually, for the first time, I played the Fitness Equipment infront of anybody. So be proud, Yusuf!
I reached home at about 5.45.
Then that is it, I'm veh tired to elaborate more!
I'm dead beat tired.

That should explain why this post sounds so incomplete but I don't care.

random

2009-04-04T10:09:00.006+08:00

Current Mood :

Notice: Handphone is confiscated!

Like always, let's start off my update with an apology.
Apology for the lack of updates in my blog which is due to my utmost busy, hectic schedule heh.
Well at least I'm updating now aper! ^o^
To tell you the truth, I actually miss blogging veh much seh :(
Cause it's the only thing that won't yack when I type endless craps huakhuak.
Basically, I'll just give you a summary or should I say rumusan of what happened this week. Chey~

So, School nowadays is blardy pressurizing like fark to the power of infinity!
It's the matter of time seh, that my head will pop like a balloon.
You know the pop sound? *pop* O.O
It's like right after attending the Streaming Briefing ytd, I finally realize how important it is to ace in all my Examinations. Slow kan, I know. -.-
Tapi seriously seh, it's really pressurizing you know or not?
Lagi-lagi when they fuckening stretch our brains with piles of assignments.
Ibaratkan lah otak aku macam rubber. Lama-lama nanti comfirm, seratus percent snap off punyer!
So yeah, HELLO STRESS! You're back! *grits teeth*

But on a positive note, I've been doing my work on daily basis w/o fail.
My Malay & DNT project are successfully accomplished despite the hectic schedule.
See, I'm starting to take pride in all projects given. *bragging in progress*
And besides that, I've reach my goals this week especially on my 2.4km run.
You know, I have never ever thought that I could run as fast as 14+ minutes!
HAHAHA trust me, I'm talking for real. No pigs are flying up in the sky ok!
HEH Beyonce's body in progress! HAHAHAHA MACAM PAHAM SIAAA xD

Anyway, Debate Inter-Class Competition was on Tuesday, 2nd of April.
It was okay lah, I guess, from what I heard from the Teachers who were there.
And to be honest, it wasn't really much of a challenge seh.
They didn't give much points for rebuttal and they kept on emphasizing of kids swinging from curtains to curtains at home when they watch Dora The Explorer(?) *smacks head*
Ish anak siapa tu? Bodoh benar. *shakes head*
Whatever, let's just look forward for the result when School starts on Monday.

Besides that, I shall be going up on stage AGAIN for a Prize Giving Ceremony pfft.
Sungguh breath-taking you know haha.
And I'm afraid I'd stupidly fidget while announcing the Winners. *touch wood*
HAHA Chia kental buah linci! xD

Ok I think this post is long enough.
And I'm currently being too overly-rated retarded haha.
Selamatzx!

P/S
What makes you think you all are so blardy good till you can push us around?
In your darn plastic, materialistic face if your achievement isn't reached.
Just so you know, kalau orang dah menyumpah, susah tahu hidup.
Cry lah cry, go under your booboo's armpit. Biar make-up semua smudge tsktsk. *shakes head*
Haha dah lah dahi kau berminyak HUAHUAHUAHUAHUAHUA.

AWW am I just so mean? *shakes butt*
No names were being said, let me emphasize on that.

inspiration

2009-03-25T22:49:00.004+08:00

*Bragging in Progress from Paragraph 2, Line 5 to 7 teehee*

Current Mood :

Life has been hard on me this past few weeks, you might've noticed that too.
Fortunately for me, I'm starting to regain my strength back, well maybe bit by bit.
So credits should go to the Seventeen Magazine (Feb Issue) and Mr Raja's Inspirational talk earlier of today.
It was fuckening inspiring seh and at the same time, made myself feel stewpid for a while too pfft.

Anyhoots, Result Slip was being given today.
I'm pretty satisfied with my results despite that I failed 2 expected subjects hehe.
Not a bad fail though, it was near to a pass seh nabei, kanina, chibai and etcetc.
Menyumpah sak aku jadinyer! -.-
Good news are the other subjects' grade I got was all made up of 1s and 2s.
And not forgetting myself getting highest for Lit and also near to highest for Eng and Geog by a few marks. Ini lagi satu, buat aku naik darah but nevermind lah.
Yay me still! :D

Today, I find myself exhausted since we had 2.4km run for P.E .
And I'm fuckening sick of running with no breathe forcing myself to get at least 18 or 17mins.
It worked at first but nope. Well at least it was an okay pass heh.
Besides that, today was like any other typical humourous day in school.
Haha no other days will be any more funnier having my Kaki Gereks around me seh, especially Niga Higa a.k.a Helga. *roll eyes*
And last but not least, I shall want to highlight this : I went back home alone today tsktsk :(

OKLAH let me just end my post with this music clip that Mr Raja showed earlier of today.
It's funny yet inspirational somehow.
So enjoys korang.

on hold

2009-03-23T21:29:00.007+08:00

Current Mood :

My dictionary is currently choking the word stress and many more "deep-emotional" words.
I shan't elaborate more, buat sakit hati only you know. *roll eyes*
Like one's saying, some things are better left unsaid? Fuh.
I guess if this is how my Term 2 starts with, then I'm sure gna grow long, greyish, thick, curly burly hair a.k.a Mad Scientist at the end of this term sumpah.
Just imagine me? Ish tak boleh bayangkan.

Tomorrow is Tuesday which is equivalent to another nightmare, shan't elaborate.
You know why, because being a fucken' "Calefare" is the most important role of all.
Because we are the ones who'll carry your props, be your curtains and etc.
Nevermind, I'm sincere. Kalau nak aku bentangkan red carpet like the Grammy's Award pun boleh. *grins*
So be nice! Don't give me that "renung sejuk" before I throw my fugly ferocious tantrum, comfirm tak ayu lagi nanti.
I bet I'd get sue if I were to post too elaborately seh. *touch wood*
Well at least I wasn't being too direct hehe. ^o^

Anyway, Debate's Inter-class Competition is postponed to next week.
So much of the rush but nevermind, it's a good thing though.
Wish us, the Opposition Team of 2/1 all the best in advanced.
We're gonna fight, fight, fight till we definately win the Debate.
Obviously Cartoons aren't a negative influence to young children betul? HEH.

Okay, I'm done posting.
I might want to save my chili-chili pedas words to myself before I get myself into trouble with the laws heh.

And before I forget, get well soon Bestie.
What a sudden fever you got. Sudden or whuuurt!
Drama-mama lah you sick boy! *irritates*

P/S
My mind is really in a haywire state.
Comfirm my "bulb head" dah meletup, my wire pun dah terikat mati punya.
Macam robot condemn lah nampaknya :(

march holidays

2009-03-21T00:01:00.003+08:00

Current Mood :

I'm really lazy to update my blog nowadays seh.
It's either I'm running out of words or I'm getting dumb each day tsk.
So I guess that explains the disappearance of updates here.
Macam tengah nazak pun ada eh. -.-
But I should thank my love for this blog that made me update for now.
Chey macam paham. x.x

I'm not late to wish korang Happy March Holidays still right?
We're still left with err *count fingers* 2 days of break before school starts.
Ok woah tidak tersangka ia berlalu dengan begitu cepat sekali seh haha.
And I haven't even accomplished any of my homeworks yet, not even my Debate speech.
Now this is what I call REAL procrastination man. *looks down*
But still, there is always tomorrow(s) betul tak, betul tak? HEH.
Hidup mesti mau steady jag, jangan kanchiong.
Did I really, REALLY said that! o.O

Anyhoots, my holidays was entirely spent with my family.
Am I just a sweet, adorable daughter HEHE! *eyes blink-blink*
Except for yesterday I went to meet + lepak + "mesra-mesra"(HAHA) w Boyf at 832.
It is pretty much of an experience being with a company that I'm not close with.
I declare myself an official newbie or in other words a noob. Happy?

So after much sweating, we walked off from there.
And thanks to my Beloved Boyf, he made me sweat much more by walking without stopping.
Baik kan, I know. Such a sweet Boyfriend he is, isn't he? HEH.
Yet again, he did things that annoys me a lot.
Tak surprising seh, katekan mataair aku chey ah chey.
Angkat orang macam cite Hindustan aje tau dekni.
Sajak lah tu kan! HAHAHA.

So uhuh, I spent just a day with a clique that I can finally call friends during this holidays.
See, I'm such a loner boner boohoo.
My social life is already decreasing to a critical rate.
I'm socially depressed sial. :'(

Okaylah, no mood already. Enough of updates.
I'm done and it's already 1.43am.
I'm seriously getting slower each day. Such a dumbfuck haha!
It took me so long just to update one post seh.

P/S
Muhammad Fariz Bin Juma'at!
Sorry for the sungguh last minute cancel of today's plan!
I just had to follow my parents to JB today huakhuak. ^o^
Let's go another day yeah! And I'll use my own money ah.
I'm no cheapo ok! It's just that I think rezeki tidak boleh ditolak heh.

friday 13th

2009-03-13T18:55:00.005+08:00

Current Mood :

Today marks Friday the 13th which isn't much of a jinx day though.
What only you know, all these superstitious thinking tsktsk.
Well it's just that Sports Carnival was held today.
And unfortunate enough, the weather wasn't really being considerate with us.
But still! You can't blame the Friday the 13th ok! -.-

At least on the brighter side, we had pretty much fun or should I rephrase it as I instead of we haha.
But for sure, I did had fun and so did my classmates (despite the fact we felt a lil bit cheated with the results) pfft.
So anyway, this year was way much happening than compared to last year.
Bukannya apa actually, it's just that my class was being so much enthusiastic about cheering, yet again. Macam don't know liddat.
Like who doesn't know 2/1 who goes around tying used tali-rafias over our head acting like red-Indians with the rainbow flags heh! o.O

So as a result of much intensive cheering, I lost my precious, squeaky, chirpy, irritating voice of mine. Boohoo-ness much.
And now my voice is super rock, macam metal pun boleh lah chey ah.
Boleh kalahkan Avenged Sevenfold nyer lead singer ah ok, jangan main-main!
Huahua seriously seh it's the first time I was being so cheer-ish.
Betol tak bedek ah! Tak tipu, sumpah hehe.
You should've seen how hard I shout despite I had a bad sorethroat! ^o^
Now to think back, I should get an award for the err "The Most Die-Hard Supportive Riversidian" as a reward boleh?
Cheh macam paham aje aku. x.x

To summarize all up, I think Sports Carnival was overall great and enjoyable.
It was just the weather that had to ruin the whole day and drain our moods down to the biggie big, big longkang parit.
Oh well didn't they say expect the unexpected? I'm afraid we just did HAHA.

Besides Sports Carnival, today also marks my 6th Months being with Boyf.
It was much of a hilarious yet tiring day for us both too.
So much of my time was spent with him today, after school.
Aww am I just so sweet dear HEHE.
Infact I did expect the unexpected from him despite him being like this "|" to carry a person who is 2 times the "|" ! Huahua wa caya sama lu brother! *kening up-down*

OK I'm tired already lah. *yawns*

And.. Happy March Holidays woo!
YAY US, YAY ME! Hip-hop hooray! *muka fanatic abes-abesan*
(aink emoticon nie macam Dinah je aku tengok huahua!)

P/S
Let me just specially dedicate this song to you ok Boyf/Handsome/Hotstuff/etc hehe.
And darling, you still look handsome lah ok with your hair home-cut AHAHA, sumpah! *cross my heart*

Happy 6th Months Muhamad Yusuf Bin Abdul Rahim!

recovery

2009-03-09T20:47:00.014+08:00

Current Mood :

I'm back for another update, surprising much isn't it?
Let's just say I miss blogging oh so very much ok boleh?

The main highlight for today is I've finally regained myself. Yay me!
I'm done with crying for endless nights and mourning over it.
I'll take this as the biggest silliest mistake I've ever made in my life.
I'm loving life as what it is now, especially when I'm surrounded with a circle of friends that cares for me a lot. <3
Heh tak payahlah aku nak stress botak pikirkan benda-benda yang tak munasabah lagi eh? (Plays the song : I Will Survive by Cake)

So, School today was above expectation.
Though there was some part of jealousy, anxiety, moodiness, sadness and etc, it still turned out well with a lil bit of humour at the end of the day.
If it wasn't for Darlene, Hasz and Farah, I bet I would be feeling so alone after school since SOMEBODY went for his B-Ball for the first time (as far as I can remember).
Basically we just brushed up on our Maths(OK WOW) in the canteen just now.
Can't deny we actually selit some of our time with gossiping about somebody who is amazingly just a few footsteps or to make it more specific, a seat away from us.
You can call us an expert for that heh. *kening up-down*
Sial kan, I know. -.-

Anyway, being an emcee wasn't that bad after all I guess. -excluding the anxiety.
Though my face looked like a cempedak basi on the stage, it was fun actually.
And not forgetting my Indian accent English, thanks to the bad flu I had.
Well at least I could feel the exposure of myself in front of the whole school you know.
I feel so honoured to have students, teachers and as well as the pangkat besar punya listening to my idiotic chirpy squeaky voice anyway.
It's like once in a lifetime seh. So mind me for being jaqon heh.

Okay I'm done with updating.

P/S
I dedicated this song, to you and you.
Man, you really disgust me with your superficiality seh.

the breakdown

2009-03-06T18:31:00.010+08:00

Current Mood :

It has been a month since I last updated my blog eh. Baru aja aku perasan haha.
All thanks to my busy-busy schedule and my malas-ism for the delay, like always.
I beg your pardon for leaving this blog rotting ok korang.
Ni suspect kuat korang comfirm miss me many-many kan?
HEEE I know, I know. *kening naik-naik*

To start with, life have been very to the utmost complicating these days.
My life isn't even near not even a kilometer near to the word happy.
Instead, my life is more to chocking the word sorrow, sadness and stress.
After one problem to another, and yes, to another more. *pulls hair*
All I can do was helplessly cry. Sounds complicating much? Tsktsk.

It's funny you see. It was a few weeks ago when my life was on a great track.
I guess time passed really fast without me realizing the change pfft.
Okay knock-knock, Chia.
Reality check: That was then, February. THIS is now, March! *roll eyes*

I shall not be elaborating more on that.
No use mourning over something that will bring me no good after
publishing this post. True?
Let me just take it as a part and parcels of life sigh.

On a brighter side, I'd like to thank Boyf, my Orang Kuats, Classmates and the Malay Dancers ONLY under the "Calefares Co." for the non-stop cheering me up spirit and the care and concern you have for me this past few days.
People like Adriani, Atikah, Darlene, Dinah, Farah, Hafizah, Hasz and the list goes on and on, I owe you girls millions and billions and endless of thank yous for your company ok!
Sayang korang to the tahap maxima punya ok, boleh? *sparkly eyes*

Also not forgetting my Beloved Parents and Sister who never failed to cheer me up with their endless lame jokes which turned out hilarious at the end.
Thank you for your support through out and making the effort to take your time, just to listen to my problems and giving me encouragements.
I can never ask more from you three than that.

So before I end my post.
I'd like to say that I had a great day today or should I say almost everyday, all thanks to Mr Yusuf Bin Abdul Rahim.
If it isn't for him being a great listener and adviser(CHEY!), I wouldn't be smiling and feeling great in school except for today that I had to flood in class -.-
You really did kept me from falling apart, thank you so much.
I'm looking forward to our 6th Month Anniversary which is coming in 7 days time.
I love you. Very much.

P/S
Hani Humairah Bte Kamil, I miss you like alot, alot, alot, alot and alot alot alot.
And even much more endless of a lots.
I'm sorry for everything I put you through.
I really hope everything will be okay soon, I promise.
Infact, you really were the bestest friend anyone can ever get.

immaturity

2009-02-26T21:29:00.005+08:00

Current Mood :

With utmost respect from me to this person who wrote :
"Friend macam ni mah? Selfish, self-centred and egoistic"

Note: I'm laughing while typing this post actually HAHA

First and foremost, thanks for such "big words" you described me.
Yes, I am selfish, self-centered and egoistic.
I'm just being very straight-forward and brutally honest.
Or easily said I'm just being reasonable. So why?
At least it's better than having 2 mother fucking faces who goes around bitching that particular person then act as though you did nothing.
Sounds familiar? I'm afraid yes.

You don't tell me to stop spreading rumors, will you?
Cause darling, you should know that I'm NOT and I'm NEVER bothered to do so. (Unless you think everybody's like you)
If you think that way, then I assume your brains is mainly made up of immaturity.
Trust me, things won't spread or even get worst if you learn to keep things to your ownself, not to others.

Blame yourself for getting caught in the fire that you start with.
You tell me now, who would always and forever will ask for sympathy from people if it isn't you and only you?
Just so you know by doing all that, you're indirectly forcing me to tell what really happened between the both of us which I don't think really make sense at all.
You're just proving to people how insensible you are by doing all that.

If you want people to think you're just an immature loser, then go on.
Make some more commotion about me and you, show the tantrum that you got inside of you and the "split-personality" you have in yourself that you mentioned eh?
I don't mind at all. The stage and spotlight is all yours and on you.
Cause what I know, you're overly being caught up over littlest things that you yourself know we can sort out between the both of us.
With you saying I'm selfish, self-centered and egoistic, you're just proving how coward you are to say that, while in real life you don't.

I'm just being reasonable to back myself out from your group.
Why? Because I know I'm better off with people like them, not you.
One other thing is I prioritize my CA marks more than I prioritize you as a friend. Call me selfish for all I care.
Cause you're nothing to be compared with, not even a size of a molecule is close.
You're not and never were a great friend after all.
If you were, you wouldn't be like this and instead you'd support me throughout.
Or even buck up from that malas-ism you have in yourself.

So please, do define those 3 words you called on me.

To you who said "perangai mcm kakak and adek kan?" :
Just so you know, this is all about me and your Sister.
You don't have to bring out the issue about you and my Sister and as well as Him.
Sungguh tidak ada link. :)
Or is it because you have been longing for this time to show how frustrated you are to my Sisty because she so called stole your almighty USED-TO-BE Boyf? :(
Well, another lmao is being a calefare in this act I assume. Tsktsk.

P/S
Aww why were you so caught up during Malay Dance practice?
Did your ego just lost to mine?
Or is it because you can't live without me? Boohoo.

apple of my eye

2009-02-21T22:58:00.021+08:00

Current Mood :

Oh my! Get me that LG KS 360 phone ok tolong? Heee.
Boleh lah, please? *sparkly eyes*

P/S
Each and everyday, I'm getting goddamn sickening with your attitude.
Just so you know, I hate people bossing me around, like you always do.
Take example for our project works; Carbon Footprint, Horror Trailer and etc.
Instead of thanking me for doing it, you showed that fuckening face of yours to me.
Kalau tak suka aku nya cara boleh bobal kan? -_-
What hurts more is that you even accused me of not doing it by myself too.
Woah so much of a friend you are eh. *claps*

I won't ever hesitate to back myself out from being teammates with you.
Or to a certain from being friends with you too.
For your much information, true friend do respect each other.
What respect do I mean? Respecting of one's feeling.
And I'm afraid, I didn't get that respect from you at all.

To sum everything up, I don't like the way you treat me and that is it.
I hate you PERIOD.

Trust me, I don't feel a sense of lost at all.
Cause I know I have already tried my best to hold my anger towards you.
Reasonable enough? I think it's a very big clear yes.
Objections?

I thank god everything is back to square one.

polaroids

2009-02-19T21:57:00.004+08:00

Current Mood :

My dictionary is basically choking the word stress.
Well at least these pictures cleared my mind for a while heh.

valentines day

2009-02-16T17:50:00.007+08:00

Current Mood :

Tada! I've done baking and giving out my Chocolate Hershey Cookies.
Heh I hope it's delicious, at least? Huahua.
Anyway, Happy Valentines Day! (though it's a little bit late-.-)
And thank you Boyf, for your "expensive" chocolate eh? HAHA. -o^

Let me just end this post with pictures I taken few days back.

miss you, love

2009-02-13T10:09:00.004+08:00

Current Mood :

To start off, I'd like to say I miss Muhamad Yusuf Bin Abdul Rahim. :[
Though it's just 1 day he left for A Camp, Chia misses him VERY much ok!
I hope you know how miserable I'm feeling now pfft.
Tsktsk Chia sedih tau, merana hidup Chia tak sms/msn/jumpa Uchop HEHE.
Eh ngada-ngadanyer aku puik! Masyallah. >.<

Besides him, I'm missing Hani Humairah Bte Kamil too.
It's been a day since we didn't contact each other sey.
Let's cross fingers they'll have fun overseas w their schoolmates yek. ^o^
Abeh korang have fun, aku pulak merana sorg-sorg rindukan korang sheesh.
Banyak cantik korang huahua! Mangkok betul.
K bedek. My feelings are unconditional fyi.
EH SERIOUS OK TAK TIPU! *kening naik-naik*

So today is the 13th Of February which marks my 5 Months w Boyf.
Woah! Happy sangat-sangat lah saya nie hehe. *grins*
With that, I'd like to dedicate a one whole speech for him boleh? HEH.
Sweet kan aku, I know.

Dearest,
I'm glad we made it through, through the thick and thin for f-i-v-e months.
Though certain times I felt like giving up, you were always there for me.
I shouldn't have been so blind not to see that. :[
W/o that endurance and support of yours, I'm sure we'll be nothing near to now.
Maybe giving up just isn't what you're about.

Besides, I know I've hurt you a lot w many shits I did.
Despite that, you were still on your feet standing and enduring me w/o even showing your anger towards me. Not even a bit of it.
And to a certain extent, I even wondered if you have a feeling called "anger". -.-
Yet again, I'm sorry for all wrong I've did to you, really.

With that, I'd like to wish a very Happy 5 Months to us both YAY!
Berikan ribuan tepukan untuk Nur Azira dan Muhamad Yusuf atas pencapaian ini heh.
I'm sure nobody can break us apart and noone ever could ok.
Cause nothing is ever going to come between us, it's just about you and me.
And what we are is what they'll never be.
I'll stand by you through all odds, I promise. :]
I love you very much.

Ok I'm done with my speech heh.
Be jealous people, I type all that from the bottom of my heart tau. ^o^

Anyhoots, Happy Valentines Day to Couples out there.
I hope you all will have an everlasting relationship.
And don't give up whatever happens alright, I'm sure it'll give you good at the end.

Ok golek, I'm done posting.
Takecare humans.

P/S

Chris Brown, I'm still ten toes on my feet supporting you.
I know you aren't like what I heard from the Media. Double duh.
And I really put on much believe you won't do that w/o any reasonable reason.
I'm still your number one fan through whatever ok! :]
Love you very much, Chris Brown!

Let's just hope he'll read this.

stress yet satisfied

2009-02-07T13:09:00.003+08:00

Current Mood :

It has been weeks since I've updated my blog eh. Tsktsk mcm tgh nazak sey -_-
Blame the hectic schedule I have which resulted me to malas-ism HEH.
Still, apologies for not updating and leaving this blog hanging ok!
HEEEE comfirm korang miss me many much kan, I know. *shakes head*
Ok enough already.

So, School is getting darn horrible each and every day grr. *grits teeth*
Projects and assignments are piling up and I'm goddamn sinking w all of those.
It's a matter of time I'd be like Rihanna in her Disturbia video clip. Oh god! o.O
Ini serious shit punya case, no exaggeration ok! Haha!
But still, I'm enduring for the sake of doing well in this streaming year and so on.
So teachers, juniors and seniors, appreciate this hard work of mine ok HEH. ^o^
Macam pah.

But to look on the brighter side, my life is on a great and smooth track recently.
My team won over Arshad's team for Debate on Tuesday.
And also me becoming the Best speaker. Hard to believe, I know.
Now that resulted me to be the Host for Sec 1's story-telling session soon.
Well, that sounds like pigs flying up-up high in the sky kan? -.-
Believe it or not, it's true. *runs aimlessly*
At least my hard work of "standing up for my rights" is paid off heh.

Besides that, Maths isn't a big deal for me any longer.
Even my Maths Bridging Teacher mentioned I'm showing improvements.
A job well done to me, Nur Azira Bte Khairil Anuar. Yay me!
So see, isn't it true I'm becoming much more hardworking? (Bragging in Progress)
I'm even writing a whole chunk of Science and Maths notes inside my notebooks, for the first time.
Well let's cross fingers that I'll keep up this hardworking thing of mine. *prays hard*
Ok! Enough of school talks already.

Woah it's already 7th of February eh?
FUUUH! W/o me realizing, Common Test 1 is drawing nearer already seh.
Sungguh the rapid eh time flies, like lampu kelap-kelip like that. o.o
I guess I was just too much busy with works till I got lost in time CHEY.
Ok whatever much, Chia. =.=

So on Friday, it marks the 5th Month of me being w Dearest.
I'm very much eggcited about it ok! HEHE unbelievable much. *kening naik-naik*
But too bad for him, he'll be away to Adventure Camp.
AWWW I'll miss you very much hubby. I promise I'm up to no mischief ok.
And oh ya, the following day is Valentines Day YAHOO YAHOO!
I'm really looking forward to the Outing with my Girlfriend ok.

Let me end my post with wishing the newly attached Couple on the 6th Feb.
I hope you both will have a smooth and happy relationship through out.
May you both last super long okay!
Alright girls, hands off Apin because he's Linlin's! *winkwink*

Ok golek.
I love my Boyfriend very much haha!
Muah! :D

Happy Birthday February Babies!

2009-02-07T11:18:00.009+08:00

Current Mood :

Happy Birthday to Muhammad Ruzaini Bin Khairil Anuar who's turning 20 on 9 Feb!
Anyway, I really hope you'll succeed in future and be a good brother to me and Kakak.
And I hope you'll last long with Kak Edlin too! Ok cancel the kakak HEHE.
Jangan macam-macam woi! Mentang-mentang dah 20 eh. *kening up-down*
Love you many much. Happy NS-ing in the hutan Abang! :D
And please don't hesitate giving me some bucks if you have extra kachings k! $.$
Your super irritating and spoilt sister,
Chia!

And, Happy Birthday to the girl on the left, Adriani who turned 14 on the 5th of Feb too!
I hope you'll succeed in life and as well as studies ok.
Thanks for being such a great friend for this past 2 years alright, girlfriend!
And I hope you'll have a blissful year this year.
I hope your wishes will come true too. So, blow candles more ok? HAHA!
Anyway, I hope our friendship will last very long lah boleh? *winkwink*
Oh ya, be a good Treasurer too tau huahua! ;]
Love you many much. Takecare!

Happy Birthday to Ariani Binte Adam who recently turned 14 today! Yay her!
So that also means you're err.. 4 months older than me right? *kening up-down*
Well that's not the point. HEHE! x.x
I really do hope you'll have a blessed and fruitful year ahead darling.
Make sure you do well with flying colours in your studies okay.
And, and, may our friendship be stronger and unbreakable ok? *tears of joy HAHA*
I'm also missing you many much here.
Love ya! Muah! Takecare.

just for laugh

2009-01-28T16:18:00.004+08:00

Current Mood :

Ok video ini sungguh kekek tahap maksima sial!
Thanks to Nasrun for the video eh?
Hehe! And for the vocabs taught by you, it's very much appreciated!
Chia sayang Abang Nasrun many-many lah hoik! *winkwink*

the happy ending

2009-01-24T12:27:00.008+08:00

Current Mood :

I wouldn't update my blog if Dearest Yusuf didn't bug me to do so.
Now my blog post sounded as though it's on popular demand eh?
HEHE macam paham! x.x

Life these days is equivalent to the track of a roller-coaster ride.
So much for the thrills and excitement then ended off with a little bit of tears.
Err maybe not a little bit but more to Hindustani crying session haha! -_-
If translated to Science equation : life + love -> free endless roller-coaster ride
Well that doesn't really make sense though.
But that is just actually for your err own "general knowledge" ok! Heh.

Whatever you may say, I'm loving my life now.
At least now my dictionary is choking the word : happiness. Yay me!
Besides, I've learn plenty of lessons within this few days.
Most importantly is that I learn to trust myself before trusting others more.
Well, a new achievement made for this year eh? *shakes ass*

Satu pencapaian yang hebat oleh Nur Azira Bte Khairil Anuar!
Chey! Seolah-olah seperti receiving an award @ the Grammy's. HAHAHA! -.-

Anyhoots, to sum things up.
I've patched things up with Dearest Boyfriend.
Afterall, it was my fault to hear only one party's saying and not the other.
Then w the feeling of anger, I just ended it drastically.
One word that I should be deserved to call : s-t-u-p-i-d!
Trust me, I don't even know why I ended my relationship actually. Serious ok!
Masyallah! Ke-selenge-an yang tahap maksima betul lah. Tsktsk, Chia.. Chia.
Well at least I've learn from my mistakes.
And aku tengah berazam to not repeat it ever again. Chey haha!

So this is it! My post for today that I make up for yesterday.
Well it's because I was supposed to blog yesterday.
But thanks to my tired and drowsiness, I slept on the keypad heh.

And before I go, I'd like to thank Cupid for shooting arrows at me everyday.
I assume that is why I'm falling in love with Boyf for so a lot of times hehe.

Ok bye! *screams*

P/S
I'm really sorry to cry in front of you, on the day we finally got back together dear.
Well that is actually the first time I cried real bad. O.o
I guess I missed you and your warmth too much after 5 days of "separation" eh?
Heh told ya that you're the only person I'd lose my ego to.
Oh ya! There still isn't any reason for you to apologize to me, really. :)
Because it is all thanks to the misunderstandings and my insecurities!

flying solo

2009-01-20T16:29:00.008+08:00

Current Mood :

Dearest Y,
I'm so sorry that I have to end it here, this period, this time, this way.
I'm really sorry that I couldn't follow through with you, dear.
I just had to break the promise of not leaving you again.
I feel that I already have heard and had enough from everything.
But I'll always remember how we came close to be.
I guess all is left now is for me to think through and recover from all this.
I was too occupied till I forgotten how to trust my own feelings.

Sometimes I just feel stupid to trust "friends" more than I trust you.
Why should I trust my "Bestfriend" more while I know you more than he does?
I wonder why can't I control my feelings since I trusted you?
Why can't I just trust my own feelings?
Why did I let my insecurities overcome me?
What in the world is wrong with me!

I just can't go on this way, not trusting & doubting you every min you aren't w me.
I can't bear the silence you left me w & rumors they occupied me w.
It really sounds pathetic to go on a relationship w/o trust.
What's love w/o trust baby..
This isn't the way that love is supposed to go.

I'm sorry baby, that I had to leave again. I really hope you understand. ;[
It hurt me a lot to leave you hanging, I never wish to.
But I know going on would just hurt me more.
I really do love you a lot baby, I do.
Even more than how much you can see dear.
Can't you just make a promise to me you'll be doing alright? ;[
I'm sorry for all the pain I put you through.
I hope it'll get better in time honey.

I feel so shitty.
I feel so naive.
I feel so stupid.
I feel so.. so betrayed.

Lastly, I feel that I really do love you so.
And I know I'm not confused when it comes to saying that dear.
Trust me. I never had the heart to leave you like I did before.
I'm no longer a heartless user cause You taught me to love and be strong.

Oh god. I miss you a lot.
And I really do need you here with me, right now. ;[

P/S
Baby, what happened to working it out?
;[

happy forth month, love

2009-01-13T00:00:00.012+08:00

[Edited : It has ended, you JERK!]

Current Mood :

Now this song is for you okay, stmf. ;'D

Hello semuanya!
It has been weeks since I've updated my blog eh?
Fuh! Suspect kuat case malas-ism tahap maksima nyer sey! Heh. ^.^
Tsktsktsk. Chia, Chia...

My blog is actually still on hold till further notices.
But what urged me to update is because of today, 13th of January 2009.
Need me to underline/bold/larger the date tak? Ok itu sungguh tk perlu. -.-
If anybody are scratching their head sampai setengah botak want to know why kan.
Err you all boleh rileks tepi corner sudah ok? *smirks*
Ok bedek. -.-

On Tuesday, 13 January 2009.
I am proud to declare that I've been attached with (insert name) for four months.
And still going on strong for 19 mins, 37 sec and etcetc HEHE. (Bragging in progress)
THANK GOD AND THANK YOU! (Yay me, yay us siket boleh tak? Tsk.)
Err I think it also prolly took me about (lost count) to have this much patience in him, you know. :O
Cheh macam paham. Padahal it should be the other way round. HAHA wtf-.-
I should proudly thank no other than my ego yang tahap high class for all the shites that happened after these four months.
Betul tak betul? (tears of joy, serious ok -_-)

To sum this post up, I just really want to say that I love you a lot.
In every little thing you do, I always do love you despite myself being ignorant.
I mean it when I say you're the only one I would hurt to lose, darling.
No one can ever tahan my perangai yang full of ego taik, as long as you did.
For what I realized so far, you really gave me love and everything that I needed.
With that, I hope we can last for a super duper long time.
I'll always be here to stay and loving you long time okay.
Sampai awak datang merisik kite pun boleh tau. Kite tunggu tau awak HEH.
Sayang awak many-many k. Muah!

So be jealous ok girls!
Boyfriend kita hot. Yours tak! *kening up-down*

Okay, I'm blabbering nonsense w/o realizing that it's already 12.46am.
HAHA I'm pretty annoyed by my own self eventually. -.-
Ngantok betul lah aku. *yawns*

it's a whole new year

2009-01-03T16:20:00.007+08:00

Current Mood :

Okay, it has been ages since I've updated my blog lah hor. -.-
Gratitude to my malas-ism for the drag HAHA, like again!
Not much of a surprise, eh? -_-

I, Nur Azira Bte Khairil Anuar, declare that first day of school was a meanie.
Urgh! I was being pulled out from my class during the Spot Check.
I was crossing my fingers till it sweated okay!
And that was when F.T appointed me to stand at the front.
Menyumpah sak aku jadinyer. !%@$^*)&$%$?!

Anyweh, I still had to face the music for not dying my hair black back what.
So, I was dragging myself to walk from the back to the front of the Parade Ground.
I can feel my face turning chilly red at that whole point of time standing at the front, sumpah.
Alersmak perasaan kemaluan ini amat, amat, tidak boleh terangkat siol!
Betul-betul tak boleh carry oi, serious shit punya! _|_

Right.. after much delay.
We were being arranged according to our Level.
She went nagging that parents or guardians are to be called immediately.
Then we'll be sent back if it's too much obvious. Yadayada yackity yack. -.-
I should say that God listened to my prayers while I was outside of the Office.
HAHA betul tak bedek seh, lagi-lagi hari Jumaat you! *kening up-down*

The main fucking reason I said that was because I was happily safe.
Safe cause she didn't call Sisty and I wasn't being sent back home.
So then, I happily assured her that I'll dye my hair during the weekends heh.
So much for a sweet deal with those confident eye-contact.
Whatever, at least it worked for me HEH. ^o^
But still, I had to show up in school on Mon @ 7.15am with a proper grooming.
I guess I shall be going to school w Fariz again HAHA. Thanks ehk bestie! ;D

Afterwards, nothing much happened in school.
Sitting arrangement has changed and I ended up sitting with my neighbour.
At least there's something to yay about eh? YAY ME!
But unfortunately, I'm sitting in the row in front of the Teacher's Desk.
And that fucking means no texting in class. Oh boo!
Tapi, tapi, tak apa lah. Kita pergi sekolah untuk belajar, betul tak awak?

School ended at 12.40pm though it was suppose to be at 12.30pm. -.-
Again, another yay for all of us.
I could see the face of the students glowing with happiness. o.o
Chey ah chey HAHA!

After grabbing our lunch @ Admiralty which was on Abdillah with my Girls, we all went back home.
Before heading back, I had to meet up with Baby at my Lift area.
I have to say that I missed him really much though I saw him in school earlier on.
Aww am I just so sweet dear? HEHE.
Sort things out clearly and things happened. *winkwink*
Yet again, I shall not be elaborating. (Eleh, confidential konon! Puik!)

Okay, I'm done summing this whole composition of my day HAHA.
I think I saw a B minus flying over my face for this post, eh? -.-
Anyweh, grading isn't needed lah hor? xD
Toodles!

Update Regarding Yesterday

2008-12-18T20:20:00.002+08:00

Current Mood:

It has been decades since I've updated my blog. Macam tgh nazak sey pfft.
Cause lately, I've this malas-ism thing that stopped me from blogging.
But since yesterday was a purrfect day, I really have the urge to update.
Three cheers for Nur Azira Khairil Anuar for making the effort to do so. HEH.
*shakes butt while sticks tongue out*

Okay let me warn you, it shall be very long and draggy.
So, please make yourself free to standby a cup of coffee or a cerek of them HAHA.

(Based on what you see in the photos on my previous post)
Yesterday was an eggciting day, I must say. *grins*
I spent my wonderful afternoon w my Baby Girls at East Coast Park, cycling.
So my day started of w Hani waiting for me and me being late, as usual. Double duh.
And for a payback, I was being bullied terribly by that Woman. Masyallah. ><
But it's a good thing anyweh. She made me warmed up my cheeks HAHA.

So we bus-ed to Marine Parade and walked to ECP.
And we had to drag the time for busily yacking and walking like Mak Nenek(s).
Haha dah lah gitu, ada hati nak kacau orang pulak! Tsktsk.
Till at a point of time Hani said that Nenek Tua jalan lagi cepat.
Okay bring it on sey! Let's challenge. Fuh, comperm raw ke tahap max nyer. :p

Upon reaching ECP, the first stop we went was Mc Donalds.
Orang kebuloh katakan. Heh dah makan pizza pun tak kenyang eh Hani.
Anyway, I was goddamn embarrassed for saying "push-up" phones out loud. -.-
Okay paiseh sungguh sampai ke tahap maksima sial. Cannot carry sey!

Afterwards, we went to rent the double bicycles.
Then started riding like goddamn fanatics sey. Aku kanchiong kan, I know. :D
We were so engrossed cycling sampai kelengkang semua sakit HAHA!
Then ada aja this 4 Mats menyibuk who "cycled" w us, trying to block our ways.
It was pathetic but I did freak out tho haha. Siapa tak takut jatuh oi!
Then they eventually asked us to join their pit but we turned down the offer.
After much cycling and hair blowing action(LOL), we all took a break.
And Hani was so cute to treat us ice-cream. Cheywah O.K.B seh. *kening up-down*
Then we cycled to the nearest toilet.

OH-EM-GEE okay.
To my shock I saw Zahra and Zalikha fell off the bike and into the drain.
But luckily both of them were ok, except for Zahra cause her leg bled.
Chis kongajar punya number 17. Ish tak habis-habis lah.
Sumpah aku tak favourite that number any longer. :)

Ok fast forward.
After much camwhoring, we cycled back to the shop.
Zahra sempat ambek video sampai terlajak HAHA.
Before leaving, we sat near to the beach and started storytelling.
Then bussed back home and reached Woodlands at 610.

I met Baby near BNS along with Haziq, Riz, Darlene and Qikin afterward.
Yadayada then Baby sent me back home since I was already late.
Chey macam tak tahu. Kata Cinderella(HAHA!), kan kene balik on time.
He sent me off till the staircase.
Then things happened HEH. I shall not elaborate any further. :D

Overall I had an awh-some day yesterday.
And I'm proud of myself for balancing my time well CHEY. (Bragging in Progress)
To end things, I love my Boyfriend and as well as my Babygirls much!

Alright, I'm done blogging.
Do you need any additional cups of coffee? *grins*

P/S
This dance video got me going gaga. I swear tak bedek!

ECP Outing

2008-12-18T20:18:00.001+08:00

Happy 3rd Monthsary, Love!

2008-12-12T23:21:00.007+08:00

Oh my, let me post a shout-out to Boyf since tomorrow is our 3rd Monthsary eh.
Don't get too freaked out w the mushy2 words I'd type here heh.
Tapi, tapi tetap tak boleh menangkan Edward Cullen. MIND YOU!
Perangai one of a kind sey haha. Okok start!
Satu, dua, tiga, go!
(Chis! Asal plak tangan aku menggigil pulak nie! -.-)

To my Beloved Boyf:
I'm sorry for all that I've put you through for th past few months, you being w me.
I really never had th intention to hurt you in any way, trust me baby.
I was selfish(tau tkper) enough not to care about your feelings instead of mine.
I admit that I did you wrong on 17 of October. :'(
I really hope that I wouldn't do such mistake to lose you again.
And for the 3 months being w you, I must say I really learned a lot apart from loving you.
I love you alot. That's all I can ever say darling.
I really wish to start a new fresh page of us w/o any tiffs in between us ok.
And I will always be here right beside you, every step you take darling.
I will be your strength and anything you need.
Who else can I ask for, the one that is near to perfection in my dictionary who is none other than my Mr Hothothotstuff eh? *kening up-down*

P/S
I'd wish to spend the rest of my lifetime with you baby.
I really have no doubts in that. Not even a question mark popping out. *grins*
And, and, yes I'd like to be your wife!
CHEY HAHAHAHAHA. *laughs frantically*

2008-12-06T12:17:00.004+08:00

Warning: Prepare yourself mugs of coffee! It's gna be a fucking dragging long boring post.

Selamat Hari Raya Aidil Adha! *kambing mengem-bek*
And Happy Merry Christmas! *santa claus chuckling*

Due to that, I'd like to wish everyone a very Happy Hari Raya Haji
& Merry X'mas in advanced.
Wahai kambing-kambing sekalian, do you have any last words
before being slaughtered?
HEH. Merepek sungguh. -.-

Apologies for not updating a short period of time ay.
HEEEE missed me tak?! *big sparkly eyes*
Comfirm miss nyer kan! Haha ramai lah sangat org suroh update tapi tk terjdi-jdi.
Heh beginilah ceritanya. Sebenarnyer.. malas-ism took over me huahua.
Muka mintak kene tapak betul. Huahua semuanya malas!
Tsktsk Chia, Chia. *shakes head*
But I think you should blame the fricking goddamn boring hols instead of me. ^o^
Ok enough already.

So! Yesterday was darn hilarious yet a sickening day haha.
Sickening cs I got myself a sickening headache.
Case macam naik merry go round nyer. -_-
But thanks to Boyf and Bestie's enduring spirit asking me to eat panadol, my pain went away. *smirks*
HAHA enduring kaper! -.-

Overall, both of them made my day, especially Boyf,
I swear he did. *kening naik-naik*
HAHA and the most hilarious part was when we were dying for
a cab to Semb Park.
It took us more than half an hour to find one siah.
(muka korg tkde nasib agaknyer eh) :#
Anyway all we did for the whole day there was just slacking.
Besides, I also gained the knowledge of playing Taiti kan b, kan? ^o^
So called haha! The mcm pah version of playing Taiti actually HEH. *evil smile*
Upon reaching the busstop heading to Semb interchange, it was alrdy maghrib. -.-
And Bestie heard a quacking sound. How eery can that be? o.o
Aiyo! Check-check dia tgh duduk kat bahu kau tak Riz? *muka fanatic :O*

Skip, skip, skip.
Afterwards, Boyf accompanied me wait for Kakak nearby my blk.
Thanks alot k baby, for everything. Love ya! *blow kisses*
Haha but no thanks for your darn stupid quest ok tolong. o.o
&I should thank that darn girl for getting us both locked outside till 11pm-.-
Ok itu tak pasal lah eh. At least she bribed me with 2 bottle of Milk Tea kan.
Sayang kakak! HAHA. Tapi sayang Baby more for ytd. *kening naik-naik*

Anyway, I'm gna miss Beloved Brother.
He's going away to NS on the 12th December which is a day before 13th.
I really hope he'll be fine till he reaches back home. Amin.
Ironical you see. No matter how darn annoying he is, I'm sure gna miss the fucking chaos. :(
Takecare brother, cs we care LOL. Irritating nyer itu line.
But I'm sure everyone gna miss you lots tho. *irritating puppy face*

Oh ya, Daddy told me & Kakak that he'll fork out money to do our hair YAY US!
I also found the red solid PUMA shoes I was craving for. Another YAY!
And, and, I guess I'm buying for myself a skate bag next year. HAHA YAY AGAIN!
Bragging in progess.

Okaylah dah cukup BYE.

P/S
Does anyone want to buy a Converse backpack?
It only cost $28 and the real price is $40 okay.

2008-11-24T13:22:00.012+08:00

I think I miss blogging and writing endless craps in my blog post HEH.
So! It has been decades since I've updated my blog eh.
K bedek haha, cut the exaggeration sia.
Padahal baru updated 2 days ago. Tsktsk Chia, Chia. -__-

The main fucking reason that stopped me from updating is the darn lazy-ism and bore-ism(?).
It's the matter of time I'd be crippled like a nanny sitting infront of the laptop.
Anybody, anyone? Bring me out somewhere, pretty please? *puppy's face*
AWW now I sound like somebody begging for charity. OH-EM-GEE!
Can somebody please just h-e-l-p? :(
Ya ok, whatever.

But then again, I should be happy just by the way I spent my holidays wisely.
Guess what! I didn't fork out any penny at all YAY ME. *kening up-down*
I've been lying on bed watching free movies, not forking out any penny.
And, and, this isn't what you call sengket ok?
&the most irony part is that I've been watching Barbie movies(WTF I know) when I never, I repeat, never do.
Maybe that is what the fucking boredom turned me into; a barbie-girl freak fan.
OK not just me, my sister is too.
Hard to believe, I know. Abeh asal! *shows teeth*

There you go, a no life stucked up barbie fan showing her teeth tsktsk.
I so fucking can't stand it man grr. D:
I think I need more lifesavers from MSN, not even excessive of them are enough.
I want massive, super loads or gallons of them HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
Because a little bit is never enough, nono! I want it all!~ *mimics Sharpay*
Ok I'm just simply being darn fucking lame, I swear. -.-

So a shoutout to everyone, anyone and even nobody:
I just want to say that.. I really miss my friends alot. :(
To the special somebody, I love you veh much despite our status. *wriggle butt*
I'm currently feeling very highly over-rated retarded, I know you know that.

Okay lah bye.
:D

2008-11-22T16:31:00.008+08:00

OK I don't know what to update about actually.
A LOT of unexpected incident happened lately.
And trust me, it's more than words. *kening naik-naik*

Anyway, there's a list for me to purchase in preparation for next year.
Chey padahal duit baru $50, saje je. Tsktsk Chia, Chia. -_-
Ini baru aku cakap macam paham! (Betulbetul!)
But oh wait, then what are Santa Claus for right? HEHE.

Get the same handphone model as current one : Motorazr V3xx

Nail Polish

Puma Shoes

Volcom Slim Wallet

Borders Pencil Box

Volcom Backpack

Cut/Treatment Hair

ODM Watch

Get My Hair CURLED! (June Holiday 09)

Vaio Red Laptop (FAT HOPE LAH)

Err how about.. chocolates since Xmas is near? EHEH.

Sentosa

2008-11-04T21:46:00.008+08:00

More pictures at Darlene, Hani and Nad's blog.
Updates shall be done tomorrow! ^^

2008-10-19T21:01:00.006+08:00

Hello Love! And guess what?! o.o
I bloody hate you for putting me into this bloody mess and lovely misery tsk.
HAH I'm stucked in the frickin battle of love triangle cb. _|_
I've made up my mind, to let go of everything.
Cs I never want to break both hearts & mainly bcs I really do love you two.

Dearest A,
I appreciate all the times we shared be it in Pri or Sec Sch.
I do cherish every moments we had and in fact missing it too.
Tho it's hard moving on w/o you beside me, I eventually tried.
It was really hard, very much harder than Maths EOY Paper okeh!
(IMAGINE HOW HARD IS THAT o.o)

Everytime, everyday, it hurts me seeing you.
You'll always constantly remind me of what we used to be back then.
I can't help but force myself to hate you just to forget you.
Till now I'm missing you so goddamn frickin much and loving you as much as I did before.
But being w you back isn't the best option cs I know our past will again, repeat.
And I'll end up being broken-hearten for not being a good girlf towards you.

You can see it for yourself, can't you?
It's like more than three times we tried to keep our relationship from falling and eventually it did, over and over again.
I'm really sick of losing you for a lot of times.
I'm sick of crying over you every night.
Why can't you stay and be with me always?

I guess it's best if we be this way... as friends?
Cs I learn to let go if you really love somebody.
It's just the matter of time..
Trust me, I never want to lose you ever.

To Dearest Y,
I'm sorry for being the definition of confusion to you lately.
I'm sorry to end our relationship drastically on the 17 Oct.
I never mean to do so, I never did baby.
And I never want to see you suffer and cry endlessly.

For the past one month and six days, I really had fun w you.
Every moment spent with you, will always get better than the yesterdays.
Esp the time when we were sitting down while it was raining at the 'pondok'.
HAHA how awesome can I get, commanding birds to shut up!

You made me move on with the love you shower me with, the jokes, the care and concern.
As days passes by, you healed my scarce and pain from my past.
You closed my chapter of history and opened up a new chapter of love with you.
You made me love you even more and made me move on from my past.
You were always there when I needed you, you are always there darling..
You never missed the chance of wanting to send me back home eventho it's already late at night or I'm in "Madrasah's uniform".
Never did you ever left me alone despite you knowing that I still love him.
I really need to thank you that darling..

It was never your fault that we are apart baby.
It's entirely my fault to be blinded by my past.
I really do love you and I never lied about it ok!
But thanks to love, I've let you go cause I couldn't bear to see you hurt.
Cause I just need time to think, and this isn't the end.

I still keep another half of your heart with your name on it darling.
And the keychain made by myself during DNT, that I ended up having scarce on my fingers.

I really love you and I know you know that.
I'm glad that we're back on track right now.
I'll never leave you again, not a chance baby.
I promised you, didn't I?

2008-10-15T22:40:00.004+08:00

BUT!

P/S

Yes, I'm referring to you Bestie.
How I wish I have guts to tell you so cs you've change so much.

2008-10-12T18:47:00.007+08:00

Phew I seriously thank god that I'm still alive here, living..
I never thought that this accident would've happen to my family and I, ever.
The first thing that crossed my mind was just blood and death, seriously..
I'm so traumatized, it keeps on playing on my mind tsk.

It was just yesterday, relatives and cousins came over my house.
It was just two days back when I got back with my Woodlanders Family.
It was just a few days back when I went out with the Riversidians.
And it was 3 hours ago when it happened at that particular road itself @ 3.56pm.

I still can remember it clearly, vividly..
The way the car skidded, spanned, and brake.
The screams, the tears, the impact, the panic, the pain, the everything..

I thank god everything is fine with the exception of my emotional state.
But yeah, we had some injuries here and there tho.
My backbone and heart are somehow aching.
I'm still shivering, I'm still traumatized..

For the first time I'm typing this.
I love my parents, siblings, cousins, friends and everyone. <3

SO PEOPLE.

LESSON LEARNT: PLEASE USE THE SEAT BELT EVENTHOUGH YOU'RE AT THE BACK SEAT.

P/S
The bent railing that the car skidded on tsk.

From that railing, the car spanned to here. Look @ how bad it became.

2008-10-11T16:18:00.011+08:00

BEFORE ANYTHING, MY HANDPHONE NO. HAVE CHANGED.
I'm using a temporary prepaid card due to the overused of handphone HAHA.
Jangan segan-segan to ask me the new no. thank you.
Macam paham ah ehk. -.-

PBS Hari-Raya Outing yesterday was total the gerek-ness! *wink
I never expected myself to get into a world of confusion at the same time hah-_-
Okay let's plan more outings together lovelies!
I shall update or "elaborate" more on the next post.

P/S
How can I move on when I'm still in love with you.
It's hard but I really got to be strong to face you.

2008-10-09T16:13:00.004+08:00

Raya with Riversidians Clan, yesterday October 8.
Sorry to the Sec 3s/2s NA cs I didn't take a snap of your pictures eh.
And I don't have some of the group picture either-.-

Incomplete.

2008-10-04T14:15:00.004+08:00

2008-10-04T13:37:00.008+08:00

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri!

HEHE I beg your pardon for being 4 days late okay.
I was just a lil bit too busy with my EOY. (chey macam paham)
Anyway, my hidung went sumbat suddenly w/o any particular reason.
Probably I smelled too much money ehk! *kachings*
HAHA kene sumbat ngan $1 coin agaknyer-.-

Just so you know, this is Hari Raya a.k.a Bulan Syawal.
So maknanya kita mesti extra drama to get the fucking extra kachings HAHA.
Dengan itu, aku ingin menyusun 10 jariku untuk memohon maaf kepada sesiapa sahaja tsk.

But this goes out more to people who I've sinned to esp Riversidians.
I know I had a rough start in Riverside Secondary School.
Maybe it's bcs of my major breakup with "__" who eventually has a brother there.
Due to that I may be blacklisted for being such a BIG B in that school.
But heck care, you heard it from them but not from me. *wink

Let me start with my speech w the anak melayu stylezx. (JENGJENG ah siket)

Saya, Nur Azira, anak kepada Kharil Anuar, ingin memohon maaf seaindainya saya terkasar bahasa lalu terguris hatimu dengan bahasa yang sungguh tak perlu ataupun dengan berkelakuan yang tidak senonoh. Saya tahu saya tidak disukai ramai dengan perangai saya yang amat perangai ini. Tetapi oleh kerana bulan ini ialah bulan Syawal saya mengharapkan agar perasaan yang benci, iri hati atau etc terhadap saya dapat digugurkan (amin) kerana saya benar-benar ingin memohon maaf, terutama sekali kawan-kawan yang menuntut di Sekolah Menengah Riverside. Saya pun ingin meminta maaf kepada jejaka-jejaka yang saya telah mengukirkan janji manis yang telah dijanjikan. Saya tidak bermaksud untuk melukakan hatimu dengan begitu mendalam kerana "it was meant to be". Ampun maaf dipinta dariku kepadamu.

Mind you, Allah tak suka orang yang sombong ehk.
Betol tak bedek ok! Tak percaya tanya Uztad heh.

WOOO syabas Chia oi! *kening naik-naik*
I managed to type a whole chunk of Malay tho it doesn't make sense.
Pictures shall be updated afterwards.

To end this post.
I really want to thank Boyfriend for being understanding about just now.
I don't know what will happen if I were to run and hide the truth from you.
What you should bother now is that I'm loving you more every single day with every breathe I take ok.
I'm missing you baby tsk.

2008-09-20T01:04:00.003+08:00

17 September.

19 September.

2008-09-20T00:00:00.003+08:00

Overdue updates:
On 17th September, break-fast with mah clan. o.O
I guess that outing was quite a memorable way to say goodbye indirectly huh?

Hello people, apa khabar? Aink. ^o^
It has been decades since I've updated my blog siol.
K bedeknya haha! -.-

Life is real intimidating these days. In Mathematical equation; life = taik.
Problem after problem keeps on creeping into my goddamn head. Pfft!
It's the matter of time I'll be like Rihanna in her Disturbia vid, I swear! o.O

Sometimes, even bestfriends can be the people who would kill to see you fall.
Perangai masyallah sak. Tak sedar diri betul! _|_
Damn all this shits ok! Relek tepi corner suak. *curse under my breathe*
Leceh ah gini. Tetapi tidak mengapa, let's just live life to the fullest ehk.
Sumpah aku malas nak ambil tau ok.
Fuh, buat aku sat aja-.-

EOY English Paper was today and I totally goddamn screwed Paper 1!
Probably somebody cursed me since I called him "kaki-kurab" earlier on.
For don't know what reason, I find myself walking on air heh.
(only hani and yanny knows about this ok! angkat paisey* )
Due to that, I couldn't concentrate leaving me only 15 minutes to rush.
Tsk wdv. Let's just cross fingers that I'll pass with flying colours ehk.
But trust me I did put on my best effort in Paper 2. *wink

Anyhoots, I followed Hani to meet up with Yanny just now.
Coincidentally I bumped into Boyfriend and clan @ Tekong.
Clan or what? CHEY! *kening naik2*
Not forgetting Solihin and clan too ehk who never fails to irritate. -.-
Overall, just now was simply great especially the sneaking part.
Mission accomplished.
Yay us eh huahua! *grins*

And haven't I tell you that I finally got my MC from being excused to fasting?
HUHU YAY ME! WOOOO! *shakes butt*
But that doesn't mean I'm cruel ok.
Kita harus berterima-kasih apa juanya. *wink
Macam pah.

Okgo, goodbye!
:D

P/S
It's just 10 days away from Hari Raya!
Gerek kan, I know! (:

2008-09-05T05:54:00.008+08:00

[EDITED] For your own happiness ehk.

Current Mood:

Hello life!
At last I'm like err living life to the fullest through out my 12 years of living.
And my dictionary is finally chocking the word: freedom.
Yay me! I wonder how awh-some can I get nowadays. (Bragging in progress)
It prolly took me about (lost count) to be this happy.
It was paid off though. HEEE.

On Wednesday 3rd September, I did went out to Bishan Library.
With no intention of slacking but to study, study and study with my Girlfriends.
Zomg how I goddamn missed them after 4 days+ of not seeing and bitching.
Tho it's the fasting month, I don't give a tiny care ok!
HEH I should proudly thank my malas-ism again for turning me into a freak there.
Of course it's not surprising that I ended up not doing my homework tsk.
Somehow my extinct just tells me to buck up in a way or another. -.-
How ironic hah!

Afterward we went to Junction 8, Sun Plaza and lastly Causeway Point.
Maybe we did break our fast at Junction 8 since we already had the temptation.
We even tried to convince everyone even our ownselves that we were Chinese.
But we we failed duh. Pfft.
Err that was supposed to be a secret anyway heh.
Come on don't tell me you're goddamn good. I know you feel it too ok! ^o^

Okay, I'm blabbering nonsense w/o realizing that it's already 6.48am.
HAHA I'm pretty annoyed by my own self eventually. -.-
But I really had an awesome day tho. *wink

Goodbye! :D

Outing

2008-09-03T22:55:00.012+08:00

Current Mood:

Hello cheebongs, haha.
Only pictures shall be updated for today.
I'm freaking tired after all the walking, talking, bitching, laughing and etc. *wink
Err I think we added up dosa to our own self just by gossiping too excessively?
HAHA. ZOMG tsk. -.-

P/S
For the first time, I'm feeling no stress.
It's for real when I say that I got over you and your everything.
Except for the Turtle Plushie ah. Itu tak diambil kira ok!
*wink

The Start of Something New

2008-09-01T06:23:00.006+08:00

Current Mood:

My, oh my!
My blog is so bloody dead and in fact!
I bet err my Grandmother is even much more and even more happening. -.-
I should thank my malas-ism okay.
Yay me? Heh!

Anyway, Ramadhan month is already here. (!!)
Eventually, if includes today, it has been two days since it started.
So goddamn fast lah ehk, macam lampu kelap-kelip ehk. -.-
OH OH maybe it's me being just too slow catching up with time? Pfft.
It's the matter of time that my hair will grow white hairs or turn bald sial.
EH SERIOUS OK! TSK.

OH YA YA!
Highlights for today and yesterday is/was: I finally rip off all my love for him.
Indirectly I'm saying that I got over him and it's for real ok!
Yay me! HEH. *kening naik-naik*
And I hope for us to be friends like we used to be last year, HAHA.
ZOMG, our lepek times pek Hani! ^o^

Oh god, lately I've been feeling like an angel but crazy yet hyper yet sleepy.
HAHA WTF, what has my malas-ism turned me into sial.
But at least saya mengerjakan solat terawih no matter how siket I did ah.
Ok at least better than being a stalker in Friendster right people!
You know some lil pussy is impersonating me with my pictures and captions.
Suspect kuat nie kental punya case cs she already deleted it. -.-
It's a good thing anyway, HAHA.

Now I feel so fucking mendak ok. I so fucking can't stand it man.
I feel that I got no life, just doing the same routine over and over again.
I got nothing to do, seriously ok. Tsk.
Luckily I got plenty of excessive lifesavers from MSN.
THANK GOD AND THANK YOU! -.-

Ok, I may be going out tomorrow to Bishan Library with Girlfriends.
YAY ME, YAY US HEH!
I’m so looking forward to it, who knows what will happen.
Cheh, I sound like a freak that never goes to a Library before.

Selamat mengerjakan ibadah puasa kepada semua umat islam.
I'm done blogging.
*Sigh

P/S
I'm sorry for declining you both.
It was never my intention to break both hearts.
I'm just not ready for any commitments yet.
You know, I never want to lose such great friends just cs of this.
:(

Sincerely for You,

2008-08-24T18:54:00.007+08:00

Current Mood:

Despite myself feeling really down, I'm forcing myself to post this up.
Heck, I should get over about that goddamn class outing eh.
But still, Chia sad, very very sad and even more sad k. Tsk.
Fuiyoo, stress terkangkang sial aku.
HEBAT!

To my beloved baby,
I never want to see you go, neither seeing this friendship wreck.
So why must we tear down this friendship that is still anew?
Just because of one’s attitude that is never goddamn intolerable?

You know, you’ve been the bestest girlfriend that I've ever met this year of 08.
Only you can make me laugh despite all the hardships I'm going through.
Only you can crack up lame jokes that yet made me laugh till my stomach aches.
You knew how to cheer me up whenever I feel hurt by whatsoever she did.
You've been my pillar of strength cs you're always there when I need you & your humor.

To me, you're the most awesome friend that anyone can ever get.
Honestly, you're the only that has so much patient in a person that pisses you off.
Cs I know all this while you're avoiding the feeling of hate & madness towards her.
Instead of scolding her, you said sorry tho it wasn't part of your fault.
You're trying your very best to tolerate her & save this friendship from falling.
I don't blame you cs you took hell lots of pain from all this *drama.
You deserve a break, if it's the best for you.
*Capek deh!

Lastly, I really feel terribly and horribly bad on the 17th of Aug 08.
I'm sorry that I couldn't defend you when he insulted you.
If only I got over him and my feelings for him weren't fresh and existed no more…
I would've spit words that could make him feel a tight slap on his face.
I know sorry won't make your wounds go away.
I know I should've prioritized you first then him who doesn't appreciate me at all.
*crying teresak-esak*

I really hope I can be there someday, just like you always do.
I love you very much, Nads Baybeh! <3

And to another You,
I mean no harm posting this up.
Probably I'm speaking up for some of our friends?
Oh no baby, don't start crying and screaming your lungs out.
Just so you know truth hurts as much you hurt us.
You got to accept that fact okay.
This time, the feeling of desperate won't help you this okay!
*kenyit mata*

P/S
Play this song while reading.
Very touchy lah sey-.-

pictures

2008-08-18T18:30:00.006+08:00

A lot more pictures were taken and I'm just simply lazy.
Ok, period.

hello stress!

2008-08-18T17:15:00.003+08:00

Current Status:

Finally, my dictionary is swallowing the word, stress.
Hello stress! And guess what?
I bloody hate you cs you made my life even more bloody miserable. -.-
And that isn't including the goddamn time constrain I'm having.
Stress botak sak aku! Sheesh! *roll eyes*

Despite all that, I managed to get out of all this bloodiness ytd.
So yeah, ribuan taniah dan tepukan for myself. *wink
Basically, I went out with my Girlfriends and 2 Boyfriends of mine.
It was awesome tapi capek banget deh!

Let me just highlight a little bit that happened.
First we went to watch Arshad's match @ Khatib's Sporthall.
Unfortunately he lost over some people's stupidity and bad-mouthing. -.-
But heck, I think he did his best oke.
HAHA, kita baru je nak bangkitkan semangat. Apa dah!
Ok, itu tak pasal. *wink

Actually, alot of commotions happened there.
I just don't wish to mention it cs it isn't any good at all. Relek suak ehk.
One phrase that describes best is it's bloody heartbreaking!
Takpe, aku sabar! Kan Nads, KAN?
*kening naik*

Afterwards, we went walking all over the place searching for food!
We looked like losers walking up and down the staircase in McDonalds.
Didn't expect some Hindustani's crying session to happen at that time though.
Honestly, I don't think anyone is to be blamed for that. *peace*

We trained to Orchard after failing to seek for food courts.
And actually, our main intention of going out is to go there.
HAHA, eventually we did and ate LJS while making public nuisance. o.O
I assume Siti was too happy with his Adik Ipah till melekat mcm glue gajah.
Fuiyoo, fuiyoo. -.-

Unfortunately, it rained when we planned to head to Wisma Atria.
Heck that somebody for showing no respect to Nads.
Please don't make us assume that your Mother teach you no respect at all.
I seriously don't see the point of you making everyone fucked up with you.
And you just had to do it when my feeling for you was still fresh.
HAHA, get over it Chia-.-

Skip, skip, skip.
We camwhored and window-shopped a lot at Wisma Atria, I tell you.
And afterwards, we headed to Esplanade to do the same thing.
After that, we headed back to Wisma since Ila wanted to get a hoodie.

Kkkzx, this is the best part!
When bus-ing back to Orchard, Darlene was seriously being a noise pollution.
And obviously we told her to zip up and so she did it willingly, okay! HAHA.
Heck, we missed a stop to Orchard and ended up stucked at Tanjong Pagar sak.
Sungguh memalukan dan sungguh tak perlu untuk menarik perhatian orang.
Apa lagi sway, Ila changed her mind and ended up not buying it.
<:}{(&cbsdldasv#%&*())&#!$& much I tell you!

Okay, I think I blabber too much till my fingers hurt.
Fine, I shall shut my traps cs I knw it's asking me to stop.
Thanks k bye!
:D

P/S
If your intention was to make you feel popular and make my heart ache,
I'm sorry but it isn't working at all.

random?

2008-08-13T17:51:00.002+08:00

Current mood:

My oh my! I’m really lazy to update my blog nowadays, seriously.
Apa nak jadi ehk dengan anak dara ni?!
Tapak muka kang nanti dengan tapak kaki baru tau ehk. -.-
Dan kalau bukan kerana rasa sayang aku kepada blog aku, relek suak ehk.
Tak mungkin aku will update like now.
HAHA, betol tak bedek okay! *wink

Anyway, life is moderately fine to me.
But still, this feeling of love and jealousy still occurs, somehow?
Problem ah gini, macam mana mau live life to the fullest siol! *roll eyes*
Tapi honestly lah, things are quite complicated.
Maybe some things are meant to leave unsaid?
Cheh, macam pah ah ehk. -_-

(This is just a random topic)
Oh well, aku naik mangkok ngan perangai lelakizx.
Huahua, except for my Hearbeat lah oke. (Jengjeng)
Esp when they kejar just to say; ”boleh tolak number tak? my kawan nak your no.”
Masyallah, selawat lah many-many k!*wink
Kkzx, tangkap maintain.

Oh wow, aku membebel tak sedar time ehk.
Alright, time checked and it’s 6.31pm.
Time for Science revision as tomorrow is Science’s CT2.
Huahua, wish me luck okay.

P/S
I hate that I love you, really.

August

2008-08-10T23:51:00.005+08:00

Current Mood:

The Crew, haha.

My Heartbeat.

My Twin.

Candid, serious.

P/S
I'll update when morning comes around.
:D

deprived

2008-07-30T17:16:00.002+08:00

current mood:

Oh sheesh, my blog is so dead and very dead.
So dead, that my great great punya grandmomma is more alive ehk. -.-
(Kelakar ah konon. Ketawa lah kau sorang macam crazy woman ehk)
Huahua, macam pah ah ehk. -.-

School schedule is really hectic nowadays.
Hectic gila sampai no time for my ownself, serious.
Betul tak bedek nyer! *cross fingers*
And at some point of time, I felt like breaking down somehow.
Tengok lah, stress sangat sampai otak pun dah sat2.
Bulu kaki aku pun dah nak naik botak siol. FUIYOO!
Macam mana nie?!

Anyhoots, I find myself rather moody and vulnerable nowadays. Tsk.
Is it just me or is it them that aren't treating me right?
Maybe it's just my mood that turns me down to take a joke eh?
HAHAHAHA, menopause kapa sak aku! JENGJENG.
But sometimes, I think it's just too much for a joke.
In other words, you exaggerated terlalu over okay!
And that's a honest remark. ^o^

Oh yeah, before I even forget.
I'll probably be performing an item in school for the NDP Celebration.
Believe it or not sak, I'm singing okay!
Comfirm muka macam cempedak basi siol. -.-
Haha, tapi nevermind lah.
At the very least, I'm singing in a group of 6.
And singing; Where I Belong which is my all time favourite song.
So, be prepared people for my ear-piercing performance on the 8th Aug.
HAHAHA. *evil wink*

Lastly, I thought you said you loved him.
Then why are you flinging with other boys?
I'm trying my best to let go of him.
So tolong ehk, jangan nak sia-siakan my effort. -.-

And to you.
I hope you'll feel satisfied since I've said this.
You can have her all you want; a piece of her, a half of her or anything!
But isn't it better to show the real me then hiding around the bushes?
I don't go disguising just for the sake of people to like me, unlike some.
So, help yourself okay b.
You have brains to think babykuzxz.

Okay, time checked. It's 6.00pm sharp.
Bye people.
Take care yaw!

P/S
Sometimes I wonder.
Why isn't my heart strong enough not to leave knowing all that you do?
And why am I so much in love with you?
Regretting? Well, I think that I am!
*tongue tied*

random

2008-07-24T23:32:00.003+08:00

My blog is so dead, but who cares right.
I'm currently on hiatus mode since Common Test are drawing near.

Life has been a bitch, so am I and the others. (Tau tkper ehk-.-)
To summarize, I've a hard week with all th piles of works and fights.
Oh god, I can't take it anymore sak.
But still, I'm mentally strong enough to go through all this okay!
I will survive! *grins*

Sheesh, I don't why but I kept on backspacing word by word.
I guess I just can't find the right words to describe how haprak my life is eh?
Stress botak sak aku dibuatnya! -.-
Sad enough ey. Tsk.

Okay, time checked and it's 11.46pm.
I'm off to sleep people! :D

And to the One Inched Lady with Fake Boobs and Wig Hair:
I hope you feel satisfied after all you did towards me.
Dah puas hati kau buat kerja tipu-menipu macam gini?
Telling lies, telling twisted stories, sampai aku terbabit in a fight?
_|_

I just hope you have got all the attention and everything you want.
Cs I know you manage to get him back too, am I right?
Congratulations for your achievements lah ehk.
And lastly, congratulations to be a newly bitch in school and in my life.
Help yourself please, I couldn't bother much any longer.
:D

P/S
Fuck, I feel so empty nowadays.
And I don't even know what I'm missing.

And yeah, what's left in my mind is just a fxcking big question mark.
"Do you love her or me?"
If you love her, go on ehk puhlese!
Just treat me as though we never ever have been in love together.
Go ahead with your plans: go to school with her, send her back and etc.

I'd rather be single then seeing you with her.
Beh treating me macam lampost bernyawa.
Biken kekek kapa sak?

But really, you're really dumb to sympathize her as if she's a loner.
Cs you see, she've attracted all the "dumbos" attention into the wrong scene.
Stewpid you to have a bitchy girlfriend like her.
And falling into one of her "cute" face eh? NOT.
Maybe, we can submit her name into the Oscars' Award for the best actress?
Hopefully.

Judging by this, do you think that I love you still?
If you say I don't, then why would I bother about you, posting this up?

But I hope you'll always remember the sacrifices I've made for you.
Macam wasted gitu ehk. In the end, this is what I get from you?
You and your One Inched Lady misusing my trust?
-.-

I'M VERY DISSAPOINTED OKAY!
SERIOUSLY! :(

Projek Melayu

2008-07-14T17:26:00.004+08:00

Ok, aku buat ini video dengan titisan peluh aku sendiri siol.
Pause my blog song if you wish to see the video.
HAHA! Jangan lupa tengok Bloopers at the very last part yaw.
Biken kelakar kape sak-.-

random

2008-07-12T18:36:00.009+08:00

Honestly, I don't know if I should blabber about this.
But this is especially for her who know lah.
Kau jangan pikir I post this up cs aku jealous eh, tolong siket!
Relek suak ehk. -.-

Dear friend,
It's been a year or so you've been a friend to me.
But wait. Do you even know the meaning of a friend?
Just so you know, you’re just faking every single words lah ehk. -.-
Fuck your words and same goes to your scandal too.
Dua kali lima dol lah sey! Suka sangat belitkan the truth.
Oh! Probably that’s what big "losers" do when they’re at wrong eh? _|_

Kau pikir hape, mentang-mentang kau kecik, kau pikir kau cute?
What's the use of being an attraction if perangai macam cempedak basi?
Despite you being a small sized yet a huge population hates you eh.
How ironic? Maybe they see your true colors, finally!
Err, don’t you think you should zap back to reality? O.o

If you're saying that I'm popular and majority hates me, I'm aware of that.
(Aku tak brag ehk. Tapi kau sendiri yang cakap. Mind you.)
At least I knew it right from the start and avoided them, unlike you.
You still go along with them despite knowing they hate you a lot.
And you yourself said that you don't mind not having me as friend.
But why still bother being with me? O.o
Ape kau peh maksud siol, in the first place? HAHAHA.
You're just indirectly saying you're a loner and don't have others to rely on.
But only us, isn’t it?

Then now what?
You're going with the Sec 2's, telling them a bunch of lies 'bout the situation.
But why lie when you know that you aren't at wrong ehk? O.o
Cs you know when you tell truth, they won't want to be with you isn't it?
Then if you're saying I'm wrong, why cry badly the other day?
You're crying cs you're a loner or cs you're feeling guilty?
Merepek siol kau. Perangai nonsense sak.
But unfortunately, kau makan diri kau yang maha kecik ehk please.
And it's stewpid you to not know lah sey:(

HAHA, think back.
Do you really think your friends are "kamching-kiak" with you?
Or are they just acting a plot with me to save the truth but not your lies?
Padahal-padahal ehk. Dasar legong! *peace*

For my case, at least I got my friends with me for who I am, truthfully.
But let me ask you, do you?
Or are you just trying to break the tie of friendship between me and them?
So that they'll trust you instead of me?
Just like what you did towards me and her, till she trusted you more than me?
And when you get what you want, you'll abandon them?
Biken kelakar kapa sak?

Hey! Why not, you go ahead with your scandal, since he pity you much.
And be the biggest attraction that you both can ever be, but as jerks?
At least its better, don’t you think so?
Then you'll get plenty of attention that can jamin your years in school okay.
Abeh kau tak payah nak become the center of attention.
Cs kau dah everywhere of attention, left, right, front and back.
But before that, better promise not to ditch each other afterwards eh?
:D

And ehk, maybe it's true.
You're just stuffing tissues/sponge in your bra to make your bust big.
That's what others and I think, seriously. -__-
No wonder it doesn't fits you sak. (!!)
Macam turtle with it's big shell, nyeknyek.

This was how you spread lies about me, fyi.
Don’t you think this is karma?
HAHA.

Yours sincerely,
Azira, your duplicate.
(Duplicate kapa kak? -.-)

To others, stop scratching your head sampai nak half koyak.
Isn't it obvious enough?

P/S
I think I'm crushing, haha.
And I've moved on cs I realized you're not worth my tears after all.
The times we had and shared are all bullshits okay!
Thinking back, why did you even asked me for a patch back?
Are those reasons mentioned even true?
I'm afraid so not ey?

Don't you think I finally zapped back from reality?
:D

Re-editted

2008-07-04T22:22:00.003+08:00

To my Used To Be Boyf'/D's Scandal,
Honestly, I don't know what has gotten into you.
I don't know if you're trying to make me feel how I made you feel the other day.
But ini case dah melampau siak.
Trust me, I'm not and never pleading you to be with me.

"Si kecik tu blh jalan uh.im irritated. Asyik kacau A jek. A tk suke dier lah.jgn takut k?"
"Yea babe. I hope there’s no arguing in this relationship again."
"K eh,Are we still together?Do u still love me? If u ask me back eh,I still love u.."
"Yea,I still hv heart 4 u..N wat about u?Do u?"

Are you still holding on to the words you said?
Are you still holding on to the promises you promised me?
Are you doing all this because you love her but not me?
Are you doing this because of revenge?

Fuck your words.
Ask yourself, do you really mean it?
You're just hiding behind the words you speak.

I'm really disappointed in you.
And hell, you don't deserve me and neither do I deserve you.
I just thought that we could be back on track, like we used to be.
And forgetting the past since I thought you've changed after you treated me right.
But no, trusting you again was another mistake.
You lied to me and you're still the same you, trying your very best to deny that you love her still.

I'm sick and tired of this sak.
I just hate letting you go cs of insecurities w/o even hearing from you.
When would you ever speak up and be a man?
Why must she always get into the picture of me and you at the wrong time?
Was it her or just you, that welcomes her into your heart?

I've sacrificed for you, cried for you.
But did you ever appreciate it and see it?
Didn't you think through the cause of the breakup we had on January 08?
Can't you see how much I loved you?

I left H because I loved you, not him.
Despite the fact I knew he loved me more than you do.
I rejected both A(s) off because I loved you, not them.
Because of you, I lost my friends.
I left you earlier this month cs I knew you loved her and not me.
All I wanted was just to make you happy and not lie to yourself.
And what more, kau panggil aku merepek lagi ade eh.
Thanks ehk.

So you're telling me now I did an effing big mistake?
And now you want D back because you effing sympatize her?
Because she's lonely? She've got nobody to count on besides you?

Tolong ehk, if you think by typing all this I'm desperate for your brother.
Congratulations to be a newly idiot. -.-

broken, empty promises.

2008-07-03T19:59:00.004+08:00

My, oh my!
Today school was such a drama siol. Seriously. -____-
I feel stupid for accepting you back, I feel so stupid to cry for you!
When I, my own self, even know that you'll break your promises and fling with her again in the end.
Am I right, baby kush? Or am I just exaggerating? -.-
(korang2 yang tgh garuk kepala sampai half koyak, just go and read)

Kau pecahkan promise kau pada aku boleh kan.
Abeh sekarang kalau aku pecahkan muka kau boleh?!
EEEEEEE, stress terkangkang aku dibuatnya! _|_
But thankfully, I’ve friends to count on that could make my day.
And to break the record, I love you all please? <3

Honestly, I couldn’t get my mind of the promises you broke towards me.
Apa lagi? Starting of the day before entering the hall aja, I started crying sak.
And that was right after I heard that they went to school together.
Aku lagi dengar yang semalam he wanted to go along with her?
What the fucking fuck for sak?! Biken kelakar kape har?

WAH WAH WAH EH!
Dah macam gitu ada hati lagi nak putar belitkan cita.
Kau peh putar belit tak dapat belitkan aku lah pompan!
Tapi belitkan diri kau yang maha kecik tu jek lah tolong(!!)
Piker aku satu peh legong ah konon. Merepek macam sial.
Aku lempang kepala kecik kau macam bola tennis baru tahu sak. O.o

Whoever nak kene lempang, join the queue okeh.
Cs I’m sure there’ll be a queve, comfirm kalahkan Sheng Shiong ah.
Serious shit, I tell you!

Besides that, aku find it quite cool ah.
Bila on the way pergi skola with Siti, happy gila babi.
When I reached school aja, mood terus hilang babe.
Nak tangkap maintain pun tak jadi siol.

I really want to thank Hani for being there when I needed her, most of the time.
I love you, serious tak bedek! Not forgetting Siti and Nads too. :D
Thanks for the hugs, jokes, laughters and everything. (:
Maybe it's true that he isn't worth my tears at all. *runs aimlessly*

AND! I'll never forget our slebeng-ness in the hall with Haziq tadi siol.
For more information about that, sila pergi http://fcukupman.blogspot.com
Angkat paisey siak aku.

P/S
Fuck, I'm disappointed in you.
Where did your promises gone to?
Or do you want me to post it up here?
I will, hold on for the next post. :D

exaggeration.

2008-07-02T19:08:00.004+08:00

My oh my, I don't know what has gotten into me.
But I really miss my Sister, serious.
Tsktsk. Random kan, I know.
(merepek. ignore please.)

Life hasn't been the way I wanted it to be since school had reopen.
Sial, I know. But heck, apa yang boleh aku buat? -.-
And today, my day was full of exaggeration and drama sak.
HAHA, tapi not a lot, just a bit ehk. Mind you.

Jengjengjeng, and to make it even worst.
Sardine came up to me saying she didn't like my habit of brushing hair during class.
Pala butoh, dia suruh aku clip up fringe. Abih macam mana?
She's just a 40 year old stupid virgin who wears pants bawah tetek abih bongkok.
Dah lah hitam and kurus macam branch, rambut style 60an pulak tu! -.-
Relek suak eh pompan.

I really can't take it siak.
But on the other side, I'm really satisfied that I had my payback.
Eventually, almost the whole class agrees to the whole plot.
Call me b*tch, but he's even more, honestly.
Aku sepak pipi kau pakai tapak kaki baru tau siol. _|_
But hey, at least I'm speaking up for the whole class ok! :D
Amik kau, chey. *peace

Anyway, I almost broke down in school during recess.
Right after Siti told me what happened, aku terus terpranjat botak ah.
Sebelum dia bilang aku pun, I saw it with my own eyes ehk, tolong.
PHUIYOO, aku jealous. Is that what you want me to say?
Now what eh, baby? You didn't even mean what you said. :(
I just hope that you still remember what you promised and said to me before.
Let HaniHumairahBinteKamil be the witness of everything.

Ok fuck, ini dah jadi perkara rumit. Serious shitnya case.
I really hope that history won't come back around.
Like I once told you. Love me, let me know and prove it.
And if you don't, I think it's best if you let me go.
Cs I don't know if there's still the existence of love for me to you.
Maybe your ignorance and you flinging around with her tells it all.
Yes? No? I don't know, really.

I don't want us to be like we used to be.
I hate hating you ok! Period.

P/S
Why do you even think I'm not serious in this relationship when I even care to bother?!
D: